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NAS70780

Thank you to those who replied, your comments showed I mattered. Unfortunately my post was deemed as abusive by a community member There is nothing in my post that was hurling abuse to others, if I was critical about anything it was towards myself. Deeply saddening that at my most vulnerable I reach out to a forum seeking guidance regarding my dark thoughts and securing guidance how I may come out of this rumination, yet the very forum who has any understanding of autism/aspergers considers my personal experience to be abusive, the irony, the oxymoron application of today's society means I am further prevented in securing the guidance this disability needs, unmet needs are further encountered with trickery steps, ordinary life is difficult to navigate and naively I thought seeking help on this platform would be safe.

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  • I don't agree with the removal, and just want to voice my support to you.

    I was writing my reply while it got removed. I hope it is fine to still add what I remember of it. The questions I had were (I may edit them if I can remember more):

    1. Was I reading correctly that you feel useless, and demotivated? Maybe because of the previous work experiences (like a PhD, I think you mentioned) ?

    2. Is there any external pressure that you could lift off your shoulders, that would make things easier? Won't fix things, but can make them less bad, as a starting point.

    3. Do you have any hobbies that you feel like doing even now?

  • in reply to Deleted User

    And lastly, do you have access to a psychologist? Mine -but I was lucky- has helped me incredibly.

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  • in reply to NAS70780

    In many GPs you can "book a double appointment"; it does help some to explain more complex problems. It may take a bit longer though. 

    GPs can also assess your fitness to work, and if you are unfit, and decide to claim benefits, it may ease some pressure off you. (This is best discussed with Citizens Advice imho.)

  • in reply to Deleted User

    I need to find the strength to see the gp, I have been meaning to do this for a while, but I can only get a ten minute appointment, and I simply don't know where to start. Alternatively I can see if there is private help, but I would rather speak to an autism specialist. I just feel if I talk to anyone else, I have to explain what I am thinking and then the emotion, yet here like I am doing now it appears you all understand and that I'm not suffering from madness (as it appears you too have experienced similar severity of suffering). Equally with managing financial i cannot afford to swap and change professional help, and the idea of finding a suitable counselor and the work involves, just makes me want to curl up and just fade.

  • in reply to Deleted User

     as of now, I think your post's ban was undone, and it is in the main list of posts.