Thank you to those who replied, your comments showed I mattered. Unfortunately my post was deemed as abusive by a community member There is nothing in my post that was hurling abuse to others, if I was critical about anything it was towards myself. Deeply saddening that at my most vulnerable I reach out to a forum seeking guidance regarding my dark thoughts and securing guidance how I may come out of this rumination, yet the very forum who has any understanding of autism/aspergers considers my personal experience to be abusive, the irony, the oxymoron application of today's society means I am further prevented in securing the guidance this disability needs, unmet needs are further encountered with trickery steps, ordinary life is difficult to navigate and naively I thought seeking help on this platform would be safe.
