Given up

That's not stupid at all. :-)

So you have lots of emotions but you are not sure what is causing them and you're lost in your thoughts.

You could be overwhelmed by something, sound, light, smells, weather, and be struggling to identify your emotions. This is not silly.

It is just a puzzle to be figured out.

If you lie down and close your eyes, and focus on your breathing it may help.

You can try headphones with and focus on the music. With your eyes closed. Your brain may slow and focus. 

Once you can slow things down a bit you can try to focus on how you are feeling with different things. Once you get in touch with your body it will slowly get easier.

Stuart333 said:

I think the first step may be stop hating yourself

Seconded!

Reading the book Small Talk when I was near rock bottom with burnout and depression was a really big help to me. While it's about ADHD (which is me, too), I think it applies to any condition that is likely to lead you to hating yourself. None of this is your fault. Your brain is lying to you. You need to stop listening to it. It takes time, but just keep standing up for yourself. Push back. It gets easier.

But you see i dont know what it is i need to get over, im lost in my own mind an body as stupid as that sounds.

Sorry ill shut up now.

Sometimes we forget that we are also a person and that person deserves love and respect too. Looking after yourself as in making sure you allow yourself a break and accepting that your emotions are valid regardless of whatever’s happening around you. It’s ok not to be ok. 

I think the first step may be stop hating yourself and show yourself some compassion. You're doing the best you can. 

Then you might want to think about what it is you want to get over. You can't say 'everything'. You need to break it down. Then you can attack bits of it.

Why is it so bad to have emotions? Maybe it is reasonable to have some. Maybe you just need to understand them.

Not really nothing helps, I feel awful an emotional wreck I just wish I could be strong enough to get over it I hate me

Has your day improved at all? 

That made me chuckle thanks  

Welshgirl87 said:

I make my own I can't eat the ones from a store even tho I woke in one who sells them

Yeah, I know a guy who wouldn't eat sausages after he worked in a sausage factory.

I hope your chicken sandwich went down well. Just focus on those little things for now. The rest will swing back around in time. When you hit rock bottom, the only way is up. (Aw, fudge! I hated that song and now I got it stuck in my head!)

Go easy on yourself.

Nothing stays in darkness forever, there is always light at the end.

Maybe a song might lift your spirits - I'm thinking of "The bottom line" by Big Audio Dynamite

The chorus lyrics are:

When you reach the bottom line

The only thing to do is climb

Pick yourself up off the floor

Anything ya want is yours

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4V5Zoe84BjE

Hi!

I'm really sorry that you're struggling so much at the moment. Nothing is permanent, so this feeling will subside too. But if you feel that you're too deep into this and you can't handle it I think you should seek support - either professional or from people that you know will understand you. There's nothing bad with asking for help when we need it. Feel free to message me if you want to chat. 

Hope you feel better soon! 

Tears are good = changes our balance of hormones and "sciencey stuff" like that.

Platitudes.....for people like us......don't ever help!

We deal with reality, as we see it, in the moment.

It's hard - sometimes REALLY REALLY hard.

I just wanted you to hear this = with all sincerity = things always change.

If I have survived and come out stronger (multiple times,) I am very sure you can too.

I'm sending you hopeful and sustaining energy via the ether of humanity.

I hope you receive it, and it is helpful to you.

Number - out.

Made me cry reading that, such alot of right there but it's just getting my own head around it all an believing it can get better, which right now is not the case at all but thank you 

"What's occuring then" sister.

When I have found myself in dire straits and utter hopelessness in the past (and believe me......I have endured some really long and horrendous periods in my life).....I have ALWAYS found that things ALWAYS change.  Personally, I find that fact quite reassuring - and I hope you can too.

Sometimes, that change isn't exactly ace!  Moreover, sometimes, it is almost hard to believe just how dreadful it can be.........but at least it is change!

Sometimes that change comes in the form of things actually getting worse!  I know, right.......not exactly an uplifting thought for you at this moment......but hey - even things getting worst is a change!  And - when this has happened for me - the one thing that I have realised, is that I WASN'T previously at my limit at all.....I just hadn't been in that position before where I was feeling that much pain and hopelessness before.

Sometimes, the change that I speak of, simply comes in the form of me realising that I am in a "prolonged" stretch of monotonous misery and despair, with a duration and intensity that I have not had to endure before.  Although this is a grim realisation when it happens....at least it is a change ie I realise that have a different type of challenge to endure!! 

Obviously - what goes up, must come down.  It is a rule of nature and human existence, to my understanding and experience.  Accordingly, I can also reassure that.........YES, YES, YES = When all you see is darkness, there is ALWAYS a way back !

I'm an old(ish) fella - with plenty of emotional and psychological scars.  Whilst life can be an absolute toilet for long periods of time, I have ALWAYS found that, no matter what, no matter how hard things get, no matter how long they last that way.......eventually.......things ALWAYS change for the better.

And for my last (hopefully, truly uplifting thought for you).......when you come out the other side of this horrible time in your life (and you will).....you are going to be stronger, wiser and a more "complete" as a human. 

I wish you better times - and know they will arrive for you - just bear it - it will be worth it.

Best regards

Number.

You don't need to believe. You can also sit outside. They are quieter than parks.

I also have an old monastery that I visit. I find the location very peaceful.

It is not the location really, but the calmness.

Thank you so do I 

Trust me i have thought about that going into a church but im not really a believer in all that an would it be wrong to venture into one then

You know what you like to eat - that is important.

It is also both good food hygiene and good for the budget too - to make your own pack lunch and take it to work.

Welshgirl87 said:

no idea what I'll have later when im home tho

Meant to say, thinking of what to have later:

your "..

I can't face the supermarket" friend

...is the website below.

First, you rattle through the kitchen cupboard doors and the fridge / freezer compartments.

Then you type into the recipe search bar a couple of food items you noticed during your kitchen rattling. 

You can filter the list to healthy / vegetarian and so forth.

You can download the recipe idea as a pdf as well in case your wifi etc signal isn't great in the kitchen.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/food

I hope your day improves