Given up

Has your day improved at all? 

Not really nothing helps, I feel awful an emotional wreck I just wish I could be strong enough to get over it I hate me

I think the first step may be stop hating yourself and show yourself some compassion. You're doing the best you can. 

Then you might want to think about what it is you want to get over. You can't say 'everything'. You need to break it down. Then you can attack bits of it.

Why is it so bad to have emotions? Maybe it is reasonable to have some. Maybe you just need to understand them.

That's not stupid at all. :-)

So you have lots of emotions but you are not sure what is causing them and you're lost in your thoughts.

You could be overwhelmed by something, sound, light, smells, weather, and be struggling to identify your emotions. This is not silly.

It is just a puzzle to be figured out.

If you lie down and close your eyes, and focus on your breathing it may help.

You can try headphones with and focus on the music. With your eyes closed. Your brain may slow and focus. 

Once you can slow things down a bit you can try to focus on how you are feeling with different things. Once you get in touch with your body it will slowly get easier.

Stuart333 said:

I think the first step may be stop hating yourself

Seconded!

Reading the book Small Talk when I was near rock bottom with burnout and depression was a really big help to me. While it's about ADHD (which is me, too), I think it applies to any condition that is likely to lead you to hating yourself. None of this is your fault. Your brain is lying to you. You need to stop listening to it. It takes time, but just keep standing up for yourself. Push back. It gets easier.

But you see i dont know what it is i need to get over, im lost in my own mind an body as stupid as that sounds.

Sorry ill shut up now.

But you see i dont know what it is i need to get over, im lost in my own mind an body as stupid as that sounds.

Sorry ill shut up now.

That's not stupid at all. :-)

So you have lots of emotions but you are not sure what is causing them and you're lost in your thoughts.

You could be overwhelmed by something, sound, light, smells, weather, and be struggling to identify your emotions. This is not silly.

It is just a puzzle to be figured out.

If you lie down and close your eyes, and focus on your breathing it may help.

You can try headphones with and focus on the music. With your eyes closed. Your brain may slow and focus. 

Once you can slow things down a bit you can try to focus on how you are feeling with different things. Once you get in touch with your body it will slowly get easier.