I feel like im drowning, no matter how hard I try to be happy an act fine I can't its not that i dont try cause I do i feel utterly defeated.. I just want out of all this I want all this pain an torture to end.
Im sorry i know I must sound like a fool.
I mean what happens when uve reached ur limit an all u see is darkness is there a way back?
Hi!
I'm really sorry that you're struggling so much at the moment. Nothing is permanent, so this feeling will subside too. But if you feel that you're too deep into this and you can't handle it I think you should seek support - either professional or from people that you know will understand you. There's nothing bad with asking for help when we need it. Feel free to message me if you want to chat.
Hope you feel better soon! 
Hi!
I'm really sorry that you're struggling so much at the moment. Nothing is permanent, so this feeling will subside too. But if you feel that you're too deep into this and you can't handle it I think you should seek support - either professional or from people that you know will understand you. There's nothing bad with asking for help when we need it. Feel free to message me if you want to chat.
Hope you feel better soon!
