Given up

I feel like im drowning, no matter how hard I try to be happy an act fine I can't its not that i dont try cause I do i feel utterly defeated.. I just want out of all this I want all this pain an torture to end.

Im sorry i know I must sound like a fool.

I mean what happens when uve reached ur limit an all u see is darkness is there a way back?

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  • Moods change, so you hang on for another day and see how you feel.

    I was feeling especially low a few weeks ago, so for the first time in 47 years I went and sat in the church for a few hours. I've not really thought about it since I nearly died when I was 10. I assume I was spared for a reason so I went to ask why. I felt quite emotional, there was no-one else there so it didn't matter, after 2.5 hrs I felt calmer. I took the day off on my birthday a few days later and went and sat there some more.

    I am not saying church is the answer, but somewhere cool, quiet and peaceful helps to make you calm. Try to think of good things you have done. There must be some. Could you do some again. Are there more things you would still like to do. Is there some way to do some. Is there someone you could help, so you have some meaning.

    Is there someone you can talk to to get some perspective. It is easy to spiral down and talk yourself down. You have to look at good bits.

    Also all the other people who look to be doing well often have their own problems, it is all a front. They have ill parents, or children, or have debts, marriage issues, worries about jobs, family problems, hidden secrets, and their own worries.

    What it means is this ideal world we want, and the media and internet push,bis not real. Everyone makes the best of what the have, smiles and tries to look for the good bits. Or they just have a bottle wine and it goes away for a while.

    I think we have issues with emotions and feelings. It does not change anything, but it means it will get better if you hang on.

    You have to have down days to appreciate the good days.

  • Trust me i have thought about that going into a church but im not really a believer in all that an would it be wrong to venture into one then

  • You don't need to believe. You can also sit outside. They are quieter than parks.

    I also have an old monastery that I visit. I find the location very peaceful.

    It is not the location really, but the calmness.

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