RSD

I feel this so strongly. Often feel rejected (although I definitely think a lot of that is real) and I feel it so strongly. I'm not good with criticism at all and have a massive fear of failure. Struggle to deal with making mistakes. I really beat myself up and it feels like the end of the world. Definitely think it's something that has got worse over the years. I genuinely think it's one of the aspects of being AuDHD that has some of the biggest impact on my life.

I have to say it ticks boxes for me. Conflict avoidance is a big one for me

Thinking about it ,also 'replays upsetting times and events,'.  As for good things- A  great non blood related family that are as special as special can be,small but good flat,4 figure savings, mind still reasonably sharp,

Absolutely all of that fits for me.

I hadn't heard about it till it was mentioned post diagnosis, then it all started to make sense, it's driven everything for me and still does.

Summed up I think it's behind every fear of looking bad/wrong and that could result in someone rejecting, disliking me or thinking I'm stupid etc., which is underlying in every decision I make.

This ticks so many boxes for me.

Looking back at how these impacted my life I wonder how I made it this far (late 50s).

Personally I try to find the good in life to help counterbalance this "bad" stuff - it gets terribly depressing if you only look at the dark side.

All of them for me