Published on 12, July, 2020
I always thought, I don't have ADHD, I'm not hyperactive. End of story! But looking into it, last few years, I see so many traits, it's shocking! Task Paralysis, sleep disorder. Mood disorders. I find out ADHD is very complex and multifaceted. And highly correlated with autism.*** Cause the NHS is nightmare and well...ADD. So I feel very normal and energized.So I'm alert and awake a long time. I feel invincible. No fatigue. Crazy robustness. Like how I imagine a trained footballer feels after 90 minutes, muscle might ache, but boundless energy. Super fast thinking, talking also, sharper processing ***.More willpower also. More extroverted. So I think, is this what it feels to be normal. I feel like I cut 20 years of my age again... it's weird.But i'm still angry, why should I have to damage my cardiovascular system JUST TO get a SEMBLANCE of normality. ADD is a thing I'm stuck with, and might not ever be able to fix. Even with Amphetamines, legal or otherwise, low dose, high dose. It's such a debilitating thing. And much like autism, This society does NOT GIVE A DAMN what happens to people with this. You're just a write off. So this leads to a VERY BIG chip on my shoulder. And i already have enough of them already. You cant SURVIVE in this world without discipline. Focus, attention and all that. Something nature has denied me.
ADD means I am at a disadvantage. And the NHS system is beyond broken and fairly unresponsive. It's an infuriating situation. And just a complete and utter joke that i am expected to compete with NT's in this cutthroat capitalist system.
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Life is a trial. The trick is to detach from the White Noise.
The problem with our society is that it's about 'Stop Loss' rather than utilising skills. My nearest main town is full of people quite content to remain on benefits, their entire life. It's a damning indictment of small-town Britain. Add puerile Irish Country to the picture, and you have where I'm from.
The problem with the NHS is that it was usurped with pen-pushers. Too many Chiefs, and not enough Native Americans. Bureaucracy jacked up the cost, to the taxpayer. Though, to be fair, a privatised NHS would probably become Obamacare UK. An insurance-led Ponzi Scheme.
I guess we just have to learn to become proactive, rather than reactive.
I suppose I can console myself that it's not as bad as American style healthcare...what a complete and utter rip off, no vaseline style abuse, of the US citizen
I hate insurance of all kinds