Published on 12, July, 2020
I feel bad about feeling bad. I want to be my best for my family, my friends, and my colleagues, but I feel absolutely defeated – so utterly drained that I feel like I’m constantly having an out-of-body experience. I've just posted an 'Autistic Not Alien' video about this on my YouTube channel, and would welcome thoughts about how you've dealt with similar struggles.
Depersonalisation and derealization are difficult to deal with and recover from.
I struggle with interpersonal connections.
I have family but sometimes even those relationships seem tenuous.
It can be lonely, it would be nice to feel as if I belong somewhere.
I empathise with this a lot, unfortunately. I would like to analyse less and belong more.
I have always been the same as You.Part of ASD is actually feeling as though You don't belong.You cannot change that.It is a part of You.iI think trying to ' adapt ' would be a compromise.