Published on 12, July, 2020
I can only enjoy good things if I 'deserve' them, and that means I must either work hard before the good thing or be sad or tired before the good thing.
It doesn't make sense because people's worth is not in their productivity but my brain is still being difficult.
It makes it hard for me to take long breaks, more than one day of taking a break gets me all depressed and guilty.
And I always have a general sense of guilt for everything; examples:
I don't know how to change this. Is it my own ableism (like feeling bad for not having a driving license even though I know driving was overwhelming and stressful for me), is it something my parents taught me, or something else?
Any thoughts are appreciated. Thank you!
Awh I'm so sorry your feeling this way but I do understand. I get like this as well and it's hard. Were our own worst critics and can be pretty harsh on ourselves.
You do deserve good things and you don't deserve to be punishing yourself in this way. Whenever you feel like it try to remember that this isn't true. You DO deserve good things in your life.
Thank you Isa, I'll try to remember and same to you. Remember you're pretty cool!
Thank you! Remember the same about yourself to