Published on 12, July, 2020
Lights, sounds, smells, everything is extra intolerable lately. I cant seem to make myself do stuff, I cant make decisions. I feel tired and am getting headaches. Words are harder. I keep almost having meltdown/shutdowns (just today I felt like a meltdown every 30min). Im exhausted
I want it all to stop, I want to take a break from everything but I cant. I have homework, I have school, on friday we have an assembly which I always get overwhelmed at but im scared ill have a full on meltdown because I seem to not even be able to handle everyday stimuli so how could I survive a room with hundreds of students with everyone screaming to get hyped for stupid turnabout dance
I started feeling like rubbish for a couple weeks but then the last 3 days have been absolutly unbearable. Why is life so hard
Took me 21min to type this (not even that long of a post...)
I'm sorry, I need to vent about the above post and say:
How can you be here for anyone, as a "deleted user"?
Then when people change their minds (as so many do), the continuity is lost..
I'm sorry, but if you have Autism then THESE are our people.
Running away from us, seems uncomfortably like running away from yourself...
Can you just not. Its our fault she didnt feel comfortable here anymore, not hers. Shes not running away from anything, shes looking after her health. I dont know if that was a joke but its not very funny in my opinion.
I know dear FrozenH, She is a sweet wind on a dry day. We all have needs and she's staking a claim to hers now. We have to honor that. It is a sign of wisdom. She may return one day.
Well yeah...but I still feel awful
You don’t need to feel awful, it’s not your fault! However I do understand that you don’t want to feel as though she has been rejected in her own community.
I dont want Debbie to have left
I understand but she might come back in the future. Or alternatively find another autistic community that she can join.
I wont give specifics on what shes told me, but yes it is our fault
It can’t be our fault generally as some of us including myself have not even interacted with her. If a member of our autistic community makes a decision to leave it’s their choice that this space is not right for them and not necessarily an indication that we have done something wrong.
Maybe Debbie could find another autistic tribe where she feels like she belongs.