Trying to move on

Throughout high school I really struggled with bullying. Having friends then losing friends and not knowing why. Having mean rumours spread about me and all the embarrassing things that come with that.

I’ve left school and now am happy at my college. But the thing is I lie awake just thinking about it all. Reflecting on how I could’ve done something differently.

part of me is scared I’ll never be able to move on from the bullying. Part of me thinks what if this is all I’ll think about forever?

if anyone has had a similar experience and can give some well needed advice I’d really appreciate it.