Trying to move on

Throughout high school I really struggled with bullying. Having friends then losing friends and not knowing why. Having mean rumours spread about me and all the embarrassing things that come with that.

I’ve left school and now am happy at my college. But the thing is I lie awake just thinking about it all. Reflecting on how I could’ve done something differently.

part of me is scared I’ll never be able to move on from the bullying. Part of me thinks what if this is all I’ll think about forever?

if anyone has had a similar experience and can give some well needed advice I’d really appreciate it.

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  • ‘And they say that you should move on, But you can’t even get your shoes on’ 

    Betrayal by those we loved and trusted most leaves deep scars. Huge trauma. The healing process is not fully linear - a small trigger or stray thought might have you right back there post-morteming it all and feeling upset for hours. But even if it feels like going in circles, it’s really a spiral - which is conceptually a corkscrewed line. You’re still making progress just by giving it processing time, but less and less often. Almost imperceptibly at first. Glad things are better for you now, hopefully life will keep being kinder to you. 

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  • ‘And they say that you should move on, But you can’t even get your shoes on’ 

    Betrayal by those we loved and trusted most leaves deep scars. Huge trauma. The healing process is not fully linear - a small trigger or stray thought might have you right back there post-morteming it all and feeling upset for hours. But even if it feels like going in circles, it’s really a spiral - which is conceptually a corkscrewed line. You’re still making progress just by giving it processing time, but less and less often. Almost imperceptibly at first. Glad things are better for you now, hopefully life will keep being kinder to you. 

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