Published on 12, July, 2020
I came here in the hope of finding work and maybe finding a reason to keep on going, but there is nothing here. It's almost as if this place is just some sort of front for the government to say they are actually helping the autistic, when infact, they are just leaving us to die.
I hate the world, I've no desire to keep on living nor do I have a desire to connect with anymore as I just don't like anyone anymore. I keep wanting to get a job, but my lack of confidence, self-esteem and messed up head keeps me from doing so. I can't enjoy any of my hobbies because I keep worrying about work and now that my fit note is over, I'm going to keep getting hassle from DWP to find work while I wait ages for therapy, which probably won't do anything for me anyway. I want to die, but don't have it in me to kill myself and I have no desire to be apart of this heap of *** called modern civilization.
I don't even know what to do anymore.
Thank you all for your support, and I'm sorry I didn't listen to it earlier.
Don't be sorry, sometimes when we're at our lowest everything just sounds like useless platitudes. But then you realise those cliches persist for a reason - there's wisdom in there, that we pass around in a circle when someone needs reminding. Your tone sounds slightly more positive (or less overtly negative), I hope you're feeling better.