Overthinking - how to deal with it

I deal with over thinking, by writing it down.  Occasionally I send what I have written BUT BE CAREFUL WITH THAT!  The process of forcing yourself to write cogently about the matter can deliver clarity to my mind.

I’m autistic so I take things literally.  When you say write it down is it best done with inky pen and paper, or does it matter if it is typed onto laptop or into phone? 

I prefer pen and paper as it's more personal and it feels more real or permanent somehow. I find I need that connection when it comes to dealing with what goes through my head. However, I don't think it really matters, it's probably different for everyone. Maybe try both?

I’ve met plenty of drama queens during my time on the gay scene many years ago and they were off the scale 

Alice said:

Anyone have any insights into why that might be?

On the extremely rare occasions that I have felt very angry, I do feel like a different person (someone who really scares me frankly) so it is wholly reasonable to understand why I would speak of "the angry me" person in the 3rd person.

*gulps*   

I can't really be angry to any great extent, because being so makes me ill and confused. In many respects, my childhood home life didn't prepare me for confrontations or upset.

I have learnt never to send a first draft of a letter haha. When I'm angry, I can be brutal. You can literally feel the rage burning off the page, or me if you're foolish enough to provoke me to my face. Scathing is a pretty apt description of my tone. Interestingly, the times that I have torn people down in person, I remember in the third person. It's like the rage takes over and pushes my consciousness out of my head and I'm just floating above, watching. Huh, now I think about it, many of my memories of high stress/emotional situations are in the third person. Anyone have any insights into why that might be?

I have learnt never to send a first draft of a letter haha. When I'm angry, I can be brutal. You can literally feel the rage burning off the page, or me if you're foolish enough to provoke me to my face. Scathing is a pretty apt description of my tone. Interestingly, the times that I have torn people down in person, I remember in the third person. It's like the rage takes over and pushes my consciousness out of my head and I'm just floating above, watching. Huh, now I think about it, many of my memories of high stress/emotional situations are in the third person. Anyone have any insights into why that might be?

Alice said:

Anyone have any insights into why that might be?

On the extremely rare occasions that I have felt very angry, I do feel like a different person (someone who really scares me frankly) so it is wholly reasonable to understand why I would speak of "the angry me" person in the 3rd person.

*gulps*   

I can't really be angry to any great extent, because being so makes me ill and confused. In many respects, my childhood home life didn't prepare me for confrontations or upset.