Published on 12, July, 2020
im not sure what to say, i, well, i went to a gig today, a tiny one, at one point something just reminded me "im alone now and will be alone later" amd everything collapsed from that poiint.
bus home, i, well, was headbutting and punching bus window, telling everyone to *** off, would've attacked any piga called.
i was getting vigilante urges, i do have to be careful with that, its, complicated .
im, i dunno, not good, and i see how predictable this nights been,i dunno, am sick of everything and, doesn't matterr
It looks like difficulty with letting a toxic friend go away, we are drawn back to, again and again, even after we know it's not good for us.
And primary goal, which is relaxation and experience is long forgotten.