feeling just utterly lost and hopeless

im currently at a very bad point of my life, bereavement of partner if 11 years last year, sorry but i cant talk about it anymore.

led to a series of events, which led to me being 136'd, and eventually homeless, and now in temporary accommodation which is a room in a shared house of 14 (not all rooms occupied) , which is not good for me due to likely asd

the one person who has stuck by me through everything thats happened, has a lot of things going on herself, and contact has dropped quite a lot, understandably

just, feel lost like, i don't know why im bothering to do anything anymore, when im eventually housed more permanently, its just going to be all the same stuff in my head, just a different location.

i feel so useless that i cant help my mate too, i haven't got money to send her, and i really wish i did.

and ive no advice to give her, because it could only be advice shes given me, which she already knows, and im just  so bloody clueless about everything,

so feel im letting her down, and doing my best not to put any of my things ontop of hers, shes doing the same i think, and, i dunno, sorry