Published on 12, July, 2020
im currently at a very bad point of my life, bereavement of partner if 11 years last year, sorry but i cant talk about it anymore.
led to a series of events, which led to me being 136'd, and eventually homeless, and now in temporary accommodation which is a room in a shared house of 14 (not all rooms occupied) , which is not good for me due to likely asd
the one person who has stuck by me through everything thats happened, has a lot of things going on herself, and contact has dropped quite a lot, understandably
just, feel lost like, i don't know why im bothering to do anything anymore, when im eventually housed more permanently, its just going to be all the same stuff in my head, just a different location.
i feel so useless that i cant help my mate too, i haven't got money to send her, and i really wish i did.
and ive no advice to give her, because it could only be advice shes given me, which she already knows, and im just so bloody clueless about everything,
so feel im letting her down, and doing my best not to put any of my things ontop of hers, shes doing the same i think, and, i dunno, sorry
Sorry to hear you are having a difficult time.
I am not sure whether your housing is via a homeless charity or a local Council. If so either may be able to guide you to a local organization who could give you some support with things you need to do.
Also sometimes there are local charities where you might be able to volunteer with a small group and get to know others, as well as give a feeling of self worth.
thank you for replying, i didnt expect any at all tbh
i have a tenancy support worker and care co ordinator,but everythings just so slow going
im currently just drinking beside camden lock by myself, no idea why, should go back home, but i dunno, dont see the point in honesty, know i shouldnt drink too, just felt empty earlier, i dunno
ive recently applied as a warehoyse volunteer at the local bhf electrical/furniture shop, but, eh, not optimistic as usual,
ive tried being pro active, i really have, self referred to mind, nothing back, said theyd call to update on referal twice, didnt.
seems no matter what i do, nothing ever comes of it, struggling right now to be honest, trying to pay towards sevice charges ever payday, no money,
spending money to get out of the place im stuck at i dunno.
Sorry to hear of the waiting. It is so hard when you get no contact. Are there an local churches that have somewhere you can drop in to meet people or even people who can help? Sorry can't be more specific as projects are different in each area.
Or ring the Samaritans if you need someone to talk to now.
well, tbh, me and churches/religion are a no go
every time j see a street Preacher and they megaphone, i kick off, partly overwhelm, partly cos justine was pagan, gad a Christian funeral, and most thr service eas about poxy jesus not her. sorry, trauma didn't stop with just her passing