Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I've been dealing with a huge amount of mental health issues from a very early age. I've been in and out of therapy over the years, medication group support I've tried everything I've had offered and even basic life changes to try everything. I'm having a lot of intense suicidal thoughts and normally I can push them away, find help I'm not sure I just survive though it somehow. But each time I go though this I feel less like me, like I have less hope less life I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm in a really dark place and I've reached out to all the professionals I can and done all they've suggested so far. I have a long wait before I see anyone. I'm just wondering if anyone else can relate to this, anyone who wants to talk deep conversation or just to take our minds off of everything. I just need something I have no idea what it is, or what to do. I just don't know anymore but please if anyone wants to talk or help or.. Message because I really feel like I'm loosing myself, my head is never calm, I'm never okay. Sorry if I'm not supposed to write messages like this I'm just very lost on where to go to find people who can relate to me.
I'm so sorry youre going through this. I've gone through really difficult times in life and my son has struggled with depression.
One thing I've noticed is life is a little more tolerable when I feel I can breathe - the space I'm existing in doesn't feel oppressive. But also, I've been encouraged to, and also discovered it's made a difference to take a daily multi-vitamin. My son struggled with sucidal depression and hated anti-depressants, so we took him off those and I started him on a micro-dose of mushroom compound + ashwaganda. It made a gigantic difference and helped with deficiancy. He was able to cope a bit better with other difficulties.
While external stuggles may not always disappear, just having a better functioning biology has allowed me to take some next steps and think through them and create exit strategies.
Sometimes it can help to get bloodwork taken and find out if there's something you might need to suppliment. Or if a dietary change could help? I also think isolation can really compound everything. Do you have any particular hobbies or interests where there would be a like minded group you could join?
I hope this sounds helpful! If not, apologies. There's always so much in life bearing down on all of us. It's never enjoyable in the least to feel like I'm always just surviving and never 'thiving'. x
Thank you for that. It did help. I have an autoimmune condition so I lack a lot of things I need honestly. Which definitely doesn't help. And I have a few but I always feel alone in them, I don't have friends which is a big struggle for me aswell. I do feel like I'm just surviving.