Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I've been dealing with a huge amount of mental health issues from a very early age. I've been in and out of therapy over the years, medication group support I've tried everything I've had offered and even basic life changes to try everything. I'm having a lot of intense suicidal thoughts and normally I can push them away, find help I'm not sure I just survive though it somehow. But each time I go though this I feel less like me, like I have less hope less life I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm in a really dark place and I've reached out to all the professionals I can and done all they've suggested so far. I have a long wait before I see anyone. I'm just wondering if anyone else can relate to this, anyone who wants to talk deep conversation or just to take our minds off of everything. I just need something I have no idea what it is, or what to do. I just don't know anymore but please if anyone wants to talk or help or.. Message because I really feel like I'm loosing myself, my head is never calm, I'm never okay. Sorry if I'm not supposed to write messages like this I'm just very lost on where to go to find people who can relate to me.
Hello Miacarla,
I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.
If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.
If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service: http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx
The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.
MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.
If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.
You can find more information here: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/suicide
All the best,
ChloeMod