Do you like to hurt yourself?

I think it's a part of my Autism but I really love to hurt myself. Recently I've been burning my skin with bleach and shining a laser pen into my eye. Pain seems to make everything else feel better. 

  • At times i did but i stopped i'd suggest seeking other ways to deal with pain. Exercise, drawing, creating something 

  • Clara, I am concerned by what you have said in your post.

    If you need support or you are at immediate risk of harm, please contact one of the organisations below:

    Samaritans

    Free helpline for anyone feeling down, desperate or suicidal available 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.

    Telephone: 116 123 (free from any phone)

    Email: jo@samaritans.org

    SANE

    Out-of-hours mental health helpline offering specialist emotional support and information to anyone affected by mental illness, including family, friends and carers. 

    Telephone 0300 304 7000 (open 365 days from 4.30pm-10.30pm).

     

    Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM)

    Helpline for men in the UK who are down for any reason, who need to talk or find information and support.

    Telephone: 0800 58 58 58 or if living in London 0808 802 58 58 (open 365 days a year from 5pm–midnight)

    Web chat also available at: https://www.thecalmzone.net/help/get-help/


    You can find further information and advice on self-harm on the website - https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/self-harm - which you might find helpful.

    You may also wish to discuss this with your GP.



    Best wishes,

    Kevin Mod


  • I enjoy exercising which is painful but there's a sense of relief and joy after. Some people enjoy eating spicy food which is painful but euphoric. I would caution you against doing self-harm that can have bad long-term effects or that could result in permanent damage to yourself though.  

  • Please call Samaritans if you ever feel this way again.

  • I have self harmed in the past, I cut my arm a few times but mainly I would put cigarettes on on my skin. Scars from decades ago are still there. 

    I can appreciate why you do it and the se sense of relief it can bring you, and in a strange way it can become an addiction. But as I'm sure you'll be aware it's not healthy and there are better coping mechanisms you can use.

    I hope this doesn't come across as judgey because it's not intended that way and I'd be a hypocrite if it was, it's just out of concern that you could do yourself some damage beyond what you intend. 

  • It sounds like you really do want to hurt yourself both inside and out :( 

    I know some people hurt outside to care for themselves inside. Is this what you're aiming for? Or is there a degree of self-hatred/self-disgust going on.

    I hope there's a part of you Clara that is feeling ok through this.

  • I used to self-harm so I get it. But please please find less harmful ways to self-soothe! Have you tried blasting loud music and dancing round your room? Sorry if this isn't helpful, but this helps me sometimes when I'm freaking out...

  • Hi Clara, I totally get what you're saying. I've dealt with self-harm for many years. However, as good or helpful as it might feel in the moment, it really is never the answer. Burning your skin with toxic chemicals and repeatedly shining bright lights into your eye can have very very harmful effects. A good tip is to maybe do something that causes a bit of pain but doesn't have the power to properly hurt you...some people hold ice against their skin - that gives that burning sensation without using anything dangerous such as fire or cigarettes or chemicals - or wear elastic bands around their wrists and sort of ping it against their skin to create a bit of a sting? You could try having a cold shower? I've heard of those ideas working for people. The elastic band thing worked for me. Sending you best wishes - you are precious and don't need to harm your body!