Diagnosed at 23 - Hello

 Hi Jake, I was diagnosed  aith Aspergers/ASD about a month or so ago aged 45. That might explain why sometimes I've had problems at work or bullying at work or school.

Sorry for your loss. I don't feel excited by Christmas, I enjoy the decorations and as I'm Pagan I like to think decorating a tree is luring back the sun, tho I know the sun will return, but I like to engage in the sympathetic magic, I see Christmas as the Pagan Yule. 
I know my Mum is alone xmas day , so am I. My fella I call him that, runs his own security firm, and he usually works nights , and I think last 2 christmases he's worked, tho I guess as a veteran he's probably used to working when us civvies are enjoying themselves and he lives 60 miles or so  away, I could go up there tho it seems pointless as he'll probably be sleeping in the day, and his son who works there doesn't seem to be pulling his weight. I speak with him on the phone, e-mail most days, I think maybe the next day off might be new years eve. Tho I did take the opportunity to drive up there Saturday with his birthday & xmas presents as he had a couple of days off.
I think various family members have tried to split us up, tho our relationship seemed to become more platonic as it was my rotten luck to get women's problems, tho I think I'm in the process of resolving them.

I think I understand his PTSD , and he understands mine (tho I haven't been diagnosed as such). I know I won't experience the   horrors of war, unless I read someone else's account of it, but then I won't experience the horrors firsthand.  I know with myself I was sexually assaulted by a gang of boys I was at junior school with, and then shortly afterwards an older  cousin. After the boys I was sent to a child psychologist and I asked my Mum why and her reply was "To see why you behave as you do" I don't know if that was blaming me or she had a poor way with words (Tho she was the one who planted this aspie seed in my head, tho she thinks she might be herself, but not diagnosed). So after that getting out I fely I couldn't ask if what my cousin was doing was right or wrong. I think as a 16/17 year old I felt maybe I tried to engage in behaviour other females of my age were engaging in, tho maybe I came across as a "slapper" tho I would often shy away if I thought things were going too fast. Tho I had men who were only interested in sex, this resulted in a rape aged 18. Then my later husband could be abusive.

I only really began to feel I had a truly loving relationship when I met my fella. I know he picked up my anxiety when things first got sexual. I hope 2017 will lead to happenings. I know he was glad to see me Saturday and did appreciate me turning up. He liked his birthday present. I know he has helped me out, buying me a computer as my old one was ancient in computer terms. I feel I can discuss anything with him, I think maybe he's the reason I'm alive now. as he has stopped me from killing myself before now. Would family members prefer I was dead.

Sorry for going on what was a thread about diagnosis and xmas, seems I've gone off topic, but this thread and time of year has awakened emotions. I know the family members I was closest to are mainly all dead now. I wish my Dad was here as I share his enthusiasm for railways and the Rolling Stones. I'll gather I'll go to my Mum's xmas day, and here's hoping in 2017 my work and relationship(s) improve.                         

 Hi Jake, I was diagnosed  aith Aspergers/ASD about a month or so ago aged 45. That might explain why sometimes I've had problems at work or bullying at work or school.

Sorry for your loss. I don't feel excited by Christmas, I enjoy the decorations and as I'm Pagan I like to think decorating a tree is luring back the sun, tho I know the sun will return, but I like to engage in the sympathetic magic, I see Christmas as the Pagan Yule. 
I know my Mum is alone xmas day , so am I. My fella I call him that, runs his own security firm, and he usually works nights , and I think last 2 christmases he's worked, tho I guess as a veteran he's probably used to working when us civvies are enjoying themselves and he lives 60 miles or so  away, I could go up there tho it seems pointless as he'll probably be sleeping in the day, and his son who works there doesn't seem to be pulling his weight. I speak with him on the phone, e-mail most days, I think maybe the next day off might be new years eve. Tho I did take the opportunity to drive up there Saturday with his birthday & xmas presents as he had a couple of days off.
I think various family members have tried to split us up, tho our relationship seemed to become more platonic as it was my rotten luck to get women's problems, tho I think I'm in the process of resolving them.

I think I understand his PTSD , and he understands mine (tho I haven't been diagnosed as such). I know I won't experience the   horrors of war, unless I read someone else's account of it, but then I won't experience the horrors firsthand.  I know with myself I was sexually assaulted by a gang of boys I was at junior school with, and then shortly afterwards an older  cousin. After the boys I was sent to a child psychologist and I asked my Mum why and her reply was "To see why you behave as you do" I don't know if that was blaming me or she had a poor way with words (Tho she was the one who planted this aspie seed in my head, tho she thinks she might be herself, but not diagnosed). So after that getting out I fely I couldn't ask if what my cousin was doing was right or wrong. I think as a 16/17 year old I felt maybe I tried to engage in behaviour other females of my age were engaging in, tho maybe I came across as a "slapper" tho I would often shy away if I thought things were going too fast. Tho I had men who were only interested in sex, this resulted in a rape aged 18. Then my later husband could be abusive.

I only really began to feel I had a truly loving relationship when I met my fella. I know he picked up my anxiety when things first got sexual. I hope 2017 will lead to happenings. I know he was glad to see me Saturday and did appreciate me turning up. He liked his birthday present. I know he has helped me out, buying me a computer as my old one was ancient in computer terms. I feel I can discuss anything with him, I think maybe he's the reason I'm alive now. as he has stopped me from killing myself before now. Would family members prefer I was dead.

Sorry for going on what was a thread about diagnosis and xmas, seems I've gone off topic, but this thread and time of year has awakened emotions. I know the family members I was closest to are mainly all dead now. I wish my Dad was here as I share his enthusiasm for railways and the Rolling Stones. I'll gather I'll go to my Mum's xmas day, and here's hoping in 2017 my work and relationship(s) improve.