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Hello, brand new here this morning :) 

I'm a 34year old full time mum of 6 gorgeous kids, dd1 16, ds1 13 hf asd, ds2 7, dd2 4, dd3 2 and dd4 9months.

Dd1 & ds2 are full time school, dd's 2 & 3 are part time with 2 half days a fortnight at a childminders, ds1 and dd4 are home full time. Ds1 is HE due to (sn) school failing him! He's been HE now since Oct '14, we've been totally laid back up till now just mouching around, occasional trips, cooking at home, talking, loads of you tube vids etc oh and plenty of xbox haha.

I suffer with severe depression (questioning BPD) and on medication, I'm very held back/shy as I've never fitted in throught my life so I find new situations terribly hard to deal with so this obv doesn't help ds1 much.

I am married to a wonderful guy who I can not fault for the crap he takes from myself and ds1, but apart from him I have no support. My father passed away from cancer 4 years ago this July and I disowned my "mother" after years of verbal abuse and the occasional physical assault and haven't seen her for almost 9 years and certainly don't plan to any time soon either, all my grandparents have passed as well and so called friends don't bother with me, in fact just last week 1 caught dh at beavers and asked how I was as she hadn't seen me and I have left fb, bare in mind she walks past my house 4 times a day on school runs etc has my mobile number etc. So it basically is me and dh with the 6 kids (dh's dad died 2yr ago whilst his mum and brother (also asd) live an hour away so not much help).

Anyway that's me and mine please say hi I won't bite and I hope to get to know some of you x

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  • Hi Coogybear :) thanks for the reply funny you should question myself having asd as I was just reading through other posts and found an online test and thought I'll have a go see what it comes up with and bang there it is a score of 33 and reading other comments it's like looking at me but not all things and that stops me from picking the phone up and calling the docs, so think meh f**k it I'll just carry on *sigh* maybe I'll get there one day. As for the C4 show no I didn't I will get it up on telly now (only 2 at home childminder week lol) and will take a look. Everything is such a big deal for me, it all takes so much effort kwim? It's like it's all a chore Undecided how did you find the whole process of diagnosis for yourself?

    Again thanks for the reply and welcome best go deal with the baba now she's up

    Dizzy x

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  • Hi Coogybear :) thanks for the reply funny you should question myself having asd as I was just reading through other posts and found an online test and thought I'll have a go see what it comes up with and bang there it is a score of 33 and reading other comments it's like looking at me but not all things and that stops me from picking the phone up and calling the docs, so think meh f**k it I'll just carry on *sigh* maybe I'll get there one day. As for the C4 show no I didn't I will get it up on telly now (only 2 at home childminder week lol) and will take a look. Everything is such a big deal for me, it all takes so much effort kwim? It's like it's all a chore Undecided how did you find the whole process of diagnosis for yourself?

    Again thanks for the reply and welcome best go deal with the baba now she's up

    Dizzy x

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