Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello,
Never really quite sure what to say on these sorts of things, but here goes.
I'm a 43 year old autistic guy, although until maybe 10 years ago I wasn't diagnosed. I have masked heavily throughout my life but its becoming increasingly exhausting. I've been going through a really rough time recently with my mental health. I have suffered with depression for pretty much my whole life - PDD and MDD.
I have reached out for support and am on a waiting list for NHS Talking Therapies, something which I'm dreading. Talking about myself in person is something I find very difficult, to the point of literally not being able to speak. The person who did my assessment was kind enough to let me do the assessment off camera and by typing, which was a massive help. I've also had an appointment with a mental health practitioner at my GP surgery. For that, I had to type out everything beforehand and give it to him to read.
Anyway, both the talking therapies person and the MHP mentioned this place, so here I am.
The biggest challenge I'm facing at the moment is work. I really need to find a new job as my current one is killing me physically and mentally. I currently feel really burned out and shut down and when I'm not at work I pretty much sit quietly in the corner, which is really unfair on my partner. I really need something to change and and am exploring pretty much every suggestion I've been given so far.
Anyway, that's me. Thanks for reading!
Just_Chris said:Anyway, both the talking therapies person and the MHP mentioned this place, so here I am.
Well, that almost feels embarrassing at a moment. This forum seems to run in cycles of activity, and at the moment, we are in a part of that cycle that is possibly best described as .... ummm .....sparce.
It is great that you are reaching out a bit....see if anyone else "gets it".....and be reassured, you write clearly and resonantly to many people who have passed through the experience you are currently enduring. It is a tough time and it lasts longer than anyone would wish for.
If you and your partner are wholly sound (as a relationship) and this is "merely" JUST YOU having some well earned and/or whollly essential "crisis time" (for whatever reason that may be,) then I would imagine that it will be fine, in the long run, if you can PLEASE try to stay sane during this most confusing time of your life.
I am sorry that more of us are not here for you at the moment, don't take it personally, we're just all a bit "doldrums" on the forum at the moment. I hope you choose to stick around for a while and maybe you'll find something helpful along the way. I have done.
Be well.
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Thanks for the welcome and kind words!
Looks like you might be a good omen for this place Chris......you appearance has coincided with the re-emergence of a beloved missing traveller who has just popped back into this place #Debbie. And honestly, I think this place can help many people, not necessarily in the longer term, but defo for a wee while at least.
You are welcome here.