Hello Everyone

Masking Is hard to overcome. I thought and still feel my diagnosis is an explanation of me having the right to just be me. No, society demand I act in a manner that accordingly is acceptable to what the mainstream consider ' normal' . It can become easier to isolate, it's what you do in isolation I think is key for me, each will have their own views on this. I try not to dwell on a lifetime of being punished, when 'we' should have been understood and helped, but that's gone now, I hold no anger from my past, but I struggle with my anger on the outside world to this day. 

When I'm faced with sheer ignorance, one ridiculous remark from the said person and its all over for me. My latest one being what led me to join here last week just for a sheer rant, and some advice, sorry, I'm digressing ha, but unfortunately aged 54 diagnosed 5 years ago, thinks have gotten worse for me, but the pandemic and a parent with dementia and a job I was hanging onto by a thread, and all the other things life throws at you, as well as other personal problems led to a very dark place. 

To date, I still feel bullied by society in having meet ' their ' expectations. As family have no understanding nor real acceptance of my conditions and all they entail, they still persist in putting pressure on making me responsible for things I don't necessarily think I should HAVE to do. 

Heres the irony, if I keep my mouth shut, mask and obey people I've known my entire life will insist there's nothing " wrong" with me.

When I finally speak out, lose control of my emotions, them same said people will say she's always been a bit " mad "

Find some peace in what you enjoy, mine is the solace and tranquility of myself and fur baby. 

I absolutely love being out in all weather walking her, unfortunately I live in the inner city, don't drive, could get lost in a shoe box, so the panic of that along with other issues I have, I'm pretty much stuck for scenery to escape into. I'm lucky to have 2 nice parks nearby, that helps. 

If you're person who struggles to stand up for yourself, I'd say to anyone, make it one of your priorities to make allowances for yourself, and if other people need to make them allowances also, thethat's only fair and right. Alas, the more society dictates to me, the harder them asd/adhd dig in. Rebel with a cause I am...I think  

Masking Is hard to overcome. I thought and still feel my diagnosis is an explanation of me having the right to just be me. No, society demand I act in a manner that accordingly is acceptable to what the mainstream consider ' normal' . It can become easier to isolate, it's what you do in isolation I think is key for me, each will have their own views on this. I try not to dwell on a lifetime of being punished, when 'we' should have been understood and helped, but that's gone now, I hold no anger from my past, but I struggle with my anger on the outside world to this day. 

When I'm faced with sheer ignorance, one ridiculous remark from the said person and its all over for me. My latest one being what led me to join here last week just for a sheer rant, and some advice, sorry, I'm digressing ha, but unfortunately aged 54 diagnosed 5 years ago, thinks have gotten worse for me, but the pandemic and a parent with dementia and a job I was hanging onto by a thread, and all the other things life throws at you, as well as other personal problems led to a very dark place. 

To date, I still feel bullied by society in having meet ' their ' expectations. As family have no understanding nor real acceptance of my conditions and all they entail, they still persist in putting pressure on making me responsible for things I don't necessarily think I should HAVE to do. 

Heres the irony, if I keep my mouth shut, mask and obey people I've known my entire life will insist there's nothing " wrong" with me.

When I finally speak out, lose control of my emotions, them same said people will say she's always been a bit " mad "

Find some peace in what you enjoy, mine is the solace and tranquility of myself and fur baby. 

I absolutely love being out in all weather walking her, unfortunately I live in the inner city, don't drive, could get lost in a shoe box, so the panic of that along with other issues I have, I'm pretty much stuck for scenery to escape into. I'm lucky to have 2 nice parks nearby, that helps. 

If you're person who struggles to stand up for yourself, I'd say to anyone, make it one of your priorities to make allowances for yourself, and if other people need to make them allowances also, thethat's only fair and right. Alas, the more society dictates to me, the harder them asd/adhd dig in. Rebel with a cause I am...I think  

HI Effenel, thanks for replying. I take it your fur baby is a dog? We currently have two rabbits and two hamsters but we (my wife and I) have always had animals and they've always been important to us both.

I'm sorry to hear you've had a poor response to your diagnosis, that must be hard. I'm off to a big family event for the first time since my diagnosis and I'm nervous to find out a) whether any of them know/have taken the news on board and b) how they will react.