Published on 12, July, 2020
My son refuses to go to school and to discuss what’s going on, he will not listen to his parents and is hugely disrespectful in the process. I have walked on egg shells for years and I’m totally at a loss as to what to do. He puts unrealistic pressure on himself.
Thank you so much for your response, it is incredibly helpful and insightful.
He is not his biological father but has raised him from 2 yrs. His biological Dad sees him every other weekend but is not very supportive and I do suspect he is on the spectrum too. My son has Asperger's and ADHD.
He is driven to succeed and is very clever and has an ambition to improve the world from both an environmental and humanitarian standpoint, but he puts enormous pressure on himself to achieve this. He had surgery a year ago on his legs to lengthen his tendons, so he needs to do physio for 1 hour a day. He has also started following a very aggressive lifestyle coach online and which also involves 1 hour for regular exercise on top of the that, plus 2 hours of study for his A’Levels and then to get ready for school. He also needs time in the morning to research world geo-politics and other humanitarian matters. I am concerned that he spends time on very heavy subjects and I have tried to get him to explore lighter and more fun alternatives.
We have also tried to break his routine down into smaller tasks and to suggest doing them at different times but he is not prepared to do that, he is quite all or nothing. The trouble with the routine he has implemented is that he cannot keep up with it. He does it for a couple of days, is totally burned out and then slips back to not getting up. On these days he feels the need to write off that day and not go to school. As you can imagine, everyone in the house is exhausted including the cat and dog!
When I say we are walking on eggshells, it is actually more that we are containing our emotions despite his aggressive behaviours. Your point about trust makes sense as he has recently said to us that we don’t understand him and we need to let him just deal with this in his own way as he knows what he is doing. Although in reality just seems to perpetuate.
I take your point by taking a step back for a week – I think I lost sight of this as we are under enormous pressure from his school to get him to attend as he is studying A Levels. I certainly need to spend some time finding wisdom as we have tried so many different approaches and can’t seem to get through to him.
We actually took him to Iceland 2 weeks ago to support his interest in the environment, but I will try to do more stuff at home with him that he is interested in rather than focusing too much on his routine and refusing to go to school.
This has been very helpful in giving me clarity and direction on what to explore next to support him. Thank you.
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NAS77635 said:I have tried to get him to explore lighter and more fun alternatives
Our Passions should consume us. What will be light and fun to you, might actually cause more stress for him. Trivial matters can appear like unnecessary decadence. And while it's good to indulge in one thing to wind down, that might simply be a hike once per week. I have been driven mad by not being able to identify why systems are in place, have spent decades in deeper matters of philosophy, ethics and psychoanalysis. I cannot tell you the kind of absolute Sense of Relief the understanding brings. The drive is a type of resolution. We can't know everything, but when we are naturally inclined to just accidentally see hyper-connexions without the grounded understanding of the science behind them, it's a bit maddening until one has the language and physics of it all.
As for school and routines; allow him to fail! From my point of view he's incredibly intelligent and driven. He'll succeed but he'll probably do it better with some kind of mentorship that works within the world the way that he more naturally does. So many great individuals in our past were not A Level students and society would not be where it is without them. Felix Guattari is one I have studied. Due to how society used to be, many didn't require a diagnostic. Modern values no longer reflect Autistic inclinations toward deeper understanding, reliability, clarity, and so on. These might help modern consumers not consume and our economic system would come to a halt, unfortunately. Look into Planned Obsolescence for one exposure to this.
The idea out there, is we tend mature slower than our Non-Autistic peers. But I thought about how I was forced into society by my parents compared with - let's go big and say King Charles, who had everything he needed to succeed. He didn't need to 'get a job', compete with hundreds of others - there was no gatekeeping, he didn't encounter resistance to surviving. He had a platform pre-built and all he needed to do was seize the things he was driven by and specialise, grow his character. We aren't all this lucky, but I decided to give my son room to mature as a human and he can work out how to drive, what to succeed in after he builds better character and routines and becomes into himself. There is plenty of time in life to have ones wind sucked from their sails, to be shoved into factory work and never actually meet ones potential.
The way forward isn't the same for everyone. From what little you've said, you have the makings of a giant. And his capacity is currently limited by his age. He senses a great future and I can tell this. Keep reminding him of Einstein's failures and other greats who've come before him.
There are 3 main problems we struggle with. A hyper-active, chaotic brain capable of grasping incredible understanding, but not until our mid 30's or 40s. The way to ruin this is by interruption. So, allow him his intensities and they will subsist. Be prudent about only specific matters of importance: make sure he has sustenance & block out a week in advance time to build human connexion. But don't overload him with expectations, but give him specifics to be in charge of like the bins or emptying the dishwasher and a time-specific detail to get it done by. A deadline. You'll have to remind him casually... that's just parenting. My son is 25. He'll help with loads of things but I still always need to flag the recycling. Do it without irritation -sometimes we need reminding into our late years :)
The second is a difficulty with language and seemingly invisible signs non-autistics use to communicate. The only way I've worked out how to navigate is through a bit of wisdom and ethics. I don't mind-read. We're all different. I can afford others matters of dignity and kindness and be open to what they meant and learn to pause, not be reactionary and ask rather than assume. If this modelled for him, he will model it back. This bit can cause the most heightened frustration-becoming-rage, unfortunately.
And last is sensory elements - the ability to sense-perceive which doesn't dull the senses the same. You can engage this and perhaps during time together, have chocolate tastings, whisky tastings, listen to old records, go to not too noisy museums. Find different moss in the forest or at the park.
My grandmother used to say: Very few things are matters of consequence. x
Thank you so much. So many pearls of wisdom here which has given me so much food for thought. It’s opened my mind further and reminded me to be more aware of his differences, which is to be embraced. I thank you from the bottom of my heart as I think this will ultimately help me on my journey to be what he needs me to be