Published on 12, July, 2020
I just need to say this.
I hate myself. I hate the fact that I am not normal. I hate the fact that I don't understand sarcasm or jokes and I hate the fact that I seem to lack any sort of social awareness.
If there was a cure for autism I would take it in a heart beat. I would love to be normal and not feel as though I am being awkward. Maybe I would make more friends, maybe I would feel happier inside, maybe I wouldn't feel like such a disappointment. Maybe I would feel better and not feel as thought I have to disclose it on job applications.
I always have at the back on my mind that if people knew I was autistic I wouldn't have a chance in having a job cause all they would see is the diagnosis.
I hope this hasn't offended anyone.
I have never wrote on a platform like this I just needed to say something.
Sorry to hear this and I hope that in the future you feel more positive about yourself.
Life is a constantly changing thing and those changes can be for the better.
My best years have been since my 30s.
All the best to you.