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Eve12
over 2 years ago

Hi, I'm Eve. Grinning

I have Autism, also suffering from anxiety and schizophrenia. I'm on meds for most of everything and have a 'team' though not a lot of help honestly. I feel I'm better when it's just me and I can be myself. I'm finding my sensory overload difficult at the moment and I'm trying to get out of burnout. Everything is so bright, my hands feel sensitive to everything makes washing my hair hard - nurse offered to do it for me but I said no - and I'm exhausted. If I'm walking for ten minutes I need to nap almost immediately.

I was hoping to do college again but I've had to drop out as I'm not in a good enough state at the moment to do it. Feel bad about that but I guess I need to be 100% to do it. I don't want to have to be in hospital again, last year I was in 3 times. Hoping to keep it 0 this year.

I'm looking forward to meeting people here and hopefully making friends and finding understanding. I find not many people really get me. Even the professional seem to not understand.

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  • over 2 years ago

    Hiya Eve.  I suffer from anxiety and autism.  I also feel calmer on my own without the world staring at me.  Don't beat yourself up about not going to college.  There are so many people of all different ages going to further education colleges in the UK so no one should ever feel left out.  You can go to a further education college whenever your mental health has improved enough so that you can study normally.  I'm sure you will be out of hospital this year.  You have managed to stay out of hospital for 8 months out of 12.  That in itself is an achievement!  I'm sure there are many others here who are in a similar situation to you and you will definitely make friends here.

  • over 2 years ago in reply to chh104

    Hello. Slight smile It's nice to meet you. I'm sorry you suffer from anxiety, not nice at all is it? It's good there's this community where we can all be ourselves and have support for each other. Sometimes it's just nice to be on our own and not have people suffocating. That's what it feels like for me at times. Thank you so much for your kindness and understanding. My parents sadly don't understand me. I'm putting it all on hold now and hoping to look into college again in the future, for now I'm focusing on my wellbeing and safety. I'm still trying to get over my burnout it's never ending at times.

    Thanks so much for messaging.

    Have a lovely night. Xx

  • over 2 years ago in reply to Eve12

    Yeah, I always feel uneasy.  Anxiety is horrible.  I have taken Prozac for my anxiety but I developed nasty skin rashes.  I don't know why.  Maybe I was allergic to the medication.  

    I feel like I can't be the best version of myself around others, but I can be my normal self either alone or in this community.  To be honest with you, I feel burnt out in a mental sense pretty much all day every day.  I'm sure once you get better (which you will in no time!), you should definitely give college a go.  I'm sure you'll do great!

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  • over 2 years ago in reply to Eve12

    Yeah, I always feel uneasy.  Anxiety is horrible.  I have taken Prozac for my anxiety but I developed nasty skin rashes.  I don't know why.  Maybe I was allergic to the medication.  

    I feel like I can't be the best version of myself around others, but I can be my normal self either alone or in this community.  To be honest with you, I feel burnt out in a mental sense pretty much all day every day.  I'm sure once you get better (which you will in no time!), you should definitely give college a go.  I'm sure you'll do great!

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  • over 2 years ago in reply to Eve12

    Yeah I will definitely talk to my GP to change my medication.  

    Around others, I have issues with eye contact.  I can’t maintain eye contact with others because I am scared that they will think I am staring at them.  On some days, the anxiety and autism are so high sometimes that I feel so depressed for being in this awful state.  On other days, the anxiety and autism are less, so consequently I feel a bit better about myself.  I feel like my life is a bit like a seesaw with some days being good and others being bad.  I’m not sure what to do about this.

    I’m pleased you’re going to give college a try.  You’ll feel good about yourself, trust me.

  • over 2 years ago in reply to chh104

    I'm sorry to hear about your skin rash. I was on Sertraline for a while but the side effects were too much so I stopped. I'm taking Olanzapine currently and that helps me feel less anxious I feel. When you feel up to it maybe you can talk to your GP about getting a different medicine to help with your anxiety Slight smile

    chh104 said:
    I feel like I can't be the best version of myself around others, but I can be my normal self either alone or in this community

    That sums it up so well! I feel the exact same as you with this. I've not been here even a day yet but I already can be myself and I'm comfortable, which I never am in person with family or anybody else. It's like I go into shutdown mode and just listen and stare.

    I'm sorry you feel burnout in the mental sense . To be fair I think you can get burnout mentally and physically. Please do talk here if you need to. Don't face it all alone, we will all support you anytime you need us Slight smile am always happy to help if I can.

    I definitely am going to try college again when I'm feeling better. I thought about online courses but I need to talk to the college first when I'm better xx