Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi :)
I'm autistic. Unfortunately I suffer from panic attacks and anxiety pretty severely. A lot of passing out in stressful situations which can be embarrassing to say the least! I'm not very sociable I'd like to be but it's not something I'm capable of. No friends because of this and I don't really talk to my family I just can't talk properly I really struggle with it. I've thought of contacting NAS and seeking their help but I'm not sure I can cope. Even a little stress or change results in big waves of problems for me. So mostly I stay in my comfort zone and safe space, I take things one step at a time.
I find medical things really interesting. I'd love to be a doctor, not possible at the moment but who knows in the future I might be able to if I can better control my autism and anxiety. I live in hope.
I like music especially classic like Beethoven and Mozart. I enjoy a little tv and movies. But mostly I love to be in my garden with the flowers and listening to the birds. I love nature.
I feel I've said so much about myself here. Sorry! :)
Hi Pru,
I can relate to (inappropriately) apologising!
Welcome fellow classical music lover!
My man is the great J S Bach though when I was younger 'twas Wagner and I wished to become a Wagnerian opera singer.
It turns out I am a Verdi baritone though it took decades to find out, my voice is ruined and it's likely too late and i am not in a position to flourish.
Do you musik yourself?
Sing or play any instruments?
I struggle with my speech also (stopping problems!) and so I'm currently mute!
I would not wish to be too wordy here to!
Greetings, salute and best wishes to you,
Jim
Jimberry and the Couscous (Youtuber)
I love Bach too. To me Bach seems to be almost perfection - it feels so perfect to almost be beyond the ability of a normal human being to create. Super measured and calm and perfect. So different to Beethoven which seems full of human passion and the storms of human emotion. Struggles with speech are very familiar to me as my son has Selective Mutism. People who don’t think about speech have no idea just what a struggle speech can be for many autistic people. It’s a really tough thing to deal with and it’s hard to get good support. it’s great that you sing Jimberry - singing is so good for our mental health I’m sure. It’s a release of emotion isn’t it? Have you thought of joining a choir? I think a lot of singing groups have sprung up in recent years. I think I’d be too self conscious to join a singing society though - even though deep down I would like to. I’d like to be more sociable in theory - but when it comes to it I find it far too stressful. It’s a shame. l’ve been wondering recently about autism and isolation. I’ve always felt I didn’t want friends but as I get older I wonder if a part of me did all along - but I was just to scared to be more sociable. I’m not sure anymore. It’s lovely to talk to people on here. I think autistic people get on well with other autistic people maybe? People seem so nice on here.
Hi Jim,
Thank you! Very nice to meet you! Love Bach. So good, so inspiring. I think classical music just reaches people, and of all ages as well. Really good. I'm sorry to hear that. Is there anything you can do to help your voice like surgery or exercises? It's a shame that you can't do what you'd really love to do.
No I just love listening to music and enjoying it. I very rarely talk, too anxious and my throat is scarred after drinking something toxic when I was 19. So I don't sing either, it would sound horrible for sure! My talking voice is very faint and wheezy sounding now which adds to the anxiety.
Best wishes to you too Jim.
Xx