Hello!

Oh I get you. I think we all feel like this. I’m very in tune with peoples emotions, too much in fact. I have been married, I have children, I’ve run my own business for years, I used to have a best friend, a social group, and used to go clubbing and pubbing etc.

I didn’t think I had any stims, becuase what I do is normal for me. I realise though that my finger picking and biting is a stim. My nail biting was a stim.  I jiggle my leg, hold my hands in certain ways when jogging, bite my lip and inside my cheek, and I copy certain things I hear…. I twirl my hair and like feeling my curls. I also rub my thighs when seated with lots of pressure. It just relaxes me. To anyone else it looks like I’m massaging sore legs.

Dont worry about not confirming, you’re not a fake, and we’re all different. 

I guess mainly that I don't have many obvious stims, I feel I can understand emotions pretty well and I have friends currently who I like to meet up with. I know those are stereotypes and you can be autistic and do those things it's just with the media's terrible portrayals of autism I feel like a fake if I don't tick every box.

Hello. Congratulations, by the way there is no one way to be autistic. Our autistic community is so diverse, welcome I hope you like being a part of it. I hope you learn more about your amazing authentic autistic self by being in autistic spaces. 

Trying to understand your autistic experience is very much about relying on your instincts, so do what feels natural and take time to process your new knowledge.

One last thought. the complexity of your autistic experience is as complicated as being human, after  all autism is a neurotype. 

Hello

Welcome to the forum. 
can I ask, what is it that you do that doesn’t feel very autistic?