Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi there,
A couple of weeks ago, my young son was diagnosed with autism. Even though this wasn't a shock, it's still been hard for me and my wife. I am struggling in my own head to know where to go next. Not in terms of information, that is clear and the help is clearly spelt out on websites like this, just mentally.
I can't help feeling guilty and worrying greatly about his future. I blame myself, which I know is not healthy or necessary, but given I recently took the online autism test (scored 40) it has left me in limbo. I'm a grown adult with a good life, so there's no need for me to be diagnosed, I've just been lucky to be able to mask how I feel about the world and feel inside all of my 36 years, but now I need to try and nurture a very young one, and I'm finding it hard to know how. I have told very few people of his diagnosis, none of my friends, as I tend to keep myself to myself, I'm certainly not embarrassed, he's a wonderful little kid. But I feel like I need to talk to someone or hear from someone. Strangers might be the best way forward.
James
I'm autistic and have an autistic daughter, Please do not feel guilty in any way, autism gives as well as takes away. I had a great career in scientific research and my daughter is now in her second year of a chemistry degree and so far this year her lowest score in an exam or coursework is 94% - she is a bit of a prodigy. She has real problems with anxiety, but overall manages very well.
Wow that's Great! I think I need to remember the give and take. It certainly isn't all bad