Hello

Hello I'm Fluffy, I've got ASD and a few other issues. I find life as an adult on the spectrum extremely hard at times, it wasn't much easier when I was younger, I'm 23 now. I feel extremely depressed and distressed, not all to do with ASD but it doesn't help either. Some days I feel so low that I just want to end it all. Doctors can't help so I'm pretty much on my own. I've tried getting support but no one seems to want to help or even understand anything about ASD. Honestly I've just reached the limit and there's so much happening in my life I just feel like I'd rather be dead now. I'm unhappy and sick and the ASD is wrecking me physically, emotionally and mentally. I know it's not life threatening or anything but it does seem to affect so much of my life and I've had enough of it. I live a life where I've got no friends, no job and I have no love from my parents, it's like I don't even exist to them. I've felt really low this last week, don't know why really, I'm just tired of life and being me I guess. No one likes or loves me, it's a very lonely existence and I don't like it one bit. I thought I might come here to get to know more about ASD and meet some people who understands what it's like. Right now I just feel empty and worthless. I hate being autistic, it really is just the worst. I've read before about special interests but I don't have any. I'm boring and talentless.  and no matter what I do no one wants to be near me or likes me. I'm just a small ant and everyone steps on me and I feel even lower.