Published on 12, July, 2020
Hiya! I am autistic studying certHE in dance. I have 7yrs stagecoach performing arts training and 2yrs doing a btec in circus. I hopefully will be doing my BA in performing arts next year.
I am 22 and a care leaver living with my doggo(luna) and 2 cats (kida and storm).
I am greatly inspired by DV8's "can we talk about this?" regarding my own work and projects. During lockdown, I created a verbatum theatre and dance piece on Body Dysmorphia as I also suffer from it. I wanted to raise awareness of the subject and to those who suffer from it, to know they aren't alone. This year I am considering working with a few of my autistic circus friends to create a short performance piece on masking and individuality. My working title is "A Gaudy Old Raincoat".
I don't know what else to say. Pronouns: she/her
Dance is my favourite thing in the world.
I danced Ballet for 15 years, and studied DV8's Dead Dreams of Monochrome Men in college (where I studied performing arts.)
I'm glad there are other autistic girls who love all things theatre!
Ive been struggling at uni. The others don't understand autism at all and the other day i started thinking, i was losing my mind because i genuinly thought they said something completely different to what they said they meant. I tried to explain that i was scared and confused, not trying to start anything but they just didnt get it. i felt so alone and cut off. And it keeps happening. It's like, why bother speak at all. I doubt everything i read or hear and i feel im losing it and im scared. There's no support system in place like they claim there is. I had to take the day off uni today because im not coping.
I never had a good time in college, socially. There is a lot of cattiness in the performing industry, and I am simply too rejection sensitive to handle it.
Sadly, I was so good at what I did, I really could've made a career for myself, but I am much happier keeping it as a hobby now.
I'm sorry you're having a bad time. If you ever need a friend I'm here!
Being unreceptive to new ways and imposing demands on people will often draw them away from me.
I'm sorry I don't know how to help you then, unfortunately.
I hope you can work things out.
i used a font that was offered to me. it was the impact font because i actually can read that better. this site is NOT autism friendly at all.
Maybe post it again with a normal font? That may have been the reason it was taken down.
this is just like autism speaks. you mentian something negative and suddenly you are taken down. this site is supossed to be supportive. its here to help people but when i said i feel like no one can understand me, suddenly its taken down. they took away my voice, yet again. im sick of this happening. it keeps happening
Respectfully, if you need urgent help, this isn't the place to seek it.
Just take a step back and breathe.
Everyone on here is kind and helpful, I promise. Like I said, I am always here to listen.
i censored it. i cant possibly make it less triggering. im done. this site is pointless. i came here for help and no one wants to hear me, just like in person. im done
I'm sorry to hear your post was taken down.
Perhaps, if you can, re-write it with less triggering material?
Maybe sitting down and thinking about how to word this post may help you in rationalising your thoughts?
Take a deep breath and try to articulate your feelings, maybe in a more rational, less 'emotional' way.
I understand that acting upon emotion is very easy, but like I said, take a step back and put it all down in another post when your head is clearer.
Look up some grounding techniques, have a look at the emotion wheel. Try to figure out the root cause of your emotions.
If you are feeling particularly unsafe, please contact someone you trust, or Samaritans. (Contact Us | Samaritans)
Or try here: SHOUT Free, 24/7 mental health text support in the UK | Shout 85258 (giveusashout.org)