Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm not diagnosed... Yet. I am pursuing it through private medical insurance. I get ~39 on the AQ-50 and a checklist of autism in women symptoms reads like my personality. Having said that, I only find myself feeling disabled when I'm around other people, if I'm with someone I know who knows me I'm fine, but otherwise I am useless at people! I'm a walking social faux pas!
Being like this, I've felt alone my whole life. I'm here because I want to feel like a valid human being, not some weird alien.
Hi Nezumi(鼠),
welcome to this forum of weirdos and misfits
no one is useless here
I am impressed you immediately looked up the kanji. That's the kind of thing I would have done.
typical autistic I practise Zen so I had to
well done dad
i have a walking meditation when my mind cant be stopped. I learned it from military combat guys/girls I worked with.
as u walk,,, you say "sponge","bob","Square","Pants" in with each step
after 100 yards ( steps ) your previous thoughts have melted away
talk to u later i have to go for a walk LOL
My Dad gave me a self-help book when I was about 14 and I memorised a guided relaxation from it. I used that for years when I had problems. It's only in the last 4 yearsor so I've really got into it. I find it most helpful because my brain doesn't ever shut up. Meditation forces it to
i have worked for about a year in "cold selling" call centres. It was ok but it was hard work with ups and down in a week.
I have been in several armies, worked on building sites, as admin worker, science researcher, and now I work in IT as a software tester. I work for Home due to COVID which is great,,,,,,, no office
how did u get into meditation?
I researched for things that helped deal with anxiety and depression and found out that meditation had good results. So I thought I would have a go ,,,, why not ?
It has reduced my anxiety and stopped my depression which is where I was going.
Being autistic I found meditation hard ---- but I kept going and after 2 years the anxiety/depression was under control and not a problem anymore.
so
I do Yoga as well, I have a desk job so it's a necessity in my life. You would not believe how unconsciously stiff and tense I get when I'm working, it's a call centre job so I'm speaking to people all day. Without my yoga and my meditation I would be in a permanent meltdown Thankfully we've gone fully flexible in working from home. My life has gone from practically unbearable to tolerable.
I do breath-counting, mindfulness and compassion meditations, I like guided visualisation but it has to be very specific - I keep thinking I'll have to record myself reading the Right One that actually Works but then I remember I don't like the sound of my voice too much
How about you?
wow - good for u --- do u know what type u are using ?
is it mantra eg Om, OR
is it thought labelling, monitoring OR
is it breath counting or following OR
is it a guided visualise meditation OR
is it from Yoga
I do sitting ( following breath , sometimes mantra ) and walking and "By Doing" Meditations
I meditate every day myself :)