Published on 12, July, 2020
hello
( bear with me - possibly not the best at communication and isolation effects problems, also, I think )
- hope I can express myself properly sans tangents. thank you for reading ..
Apologies regards quirky writing ..
- "bullet point" seem to help minimize tangents, and dictating
-ok so - relatively confused here ;40's, diagnosed.
"Complex" medical diagnosis; autism diagnosis relatively recent
-coming to terms
-replaying life events and processing past
--autism was 'picked up ' after divorce , and effects of routine collapse (re: management physical problems, and I understand y routine collapse affected deeply ;to a degree )
- support post diagnosis seems limited (6x councelling session ) ;this, seems unusual for life long diagnosis.
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(please bear with me possibly not the best at communication and isolation effects problems, also, I think )
-tend to ' copy ' terms and phrases 'picked-up' through re-search with a view to improve communication, well-being, and possibly limit isolation, and pharmaceuticals (for injury's) and in some regards appears beneficial, but this (aforementioned) doesn't seem beneficial because seem to come across as complaining, they say.
-pre-injury's, and research however this aspect was significantly more challenging for me so, in a way I glad
- potential friends 'evaporate' so to speak
;autism appears beneficial with regards physical problems because discovering/developing over time numerous coping strategies (unawares defined as coping strategies while diagnosed)
-significant time researching physical problems
;was/is beneficial with communication to an extent
Possibly of benefit to society ( correct environment - support
;allotment space available - challenging maintain however permaculture principles, and with 1, or 2 able body's .. who know s
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-in-person communication challenging to say the least to make friendships ,or even opportunity, but, I do try as/when opportunity arises, often indoors because physical problems that said, autism seems to be impacting sensory perception s with pain list injury
-seem be misunderstood significantly (using terms I barely understand to express myself/ also (not) trying too-hard, and use words I barely understand) and with this, few friends, if any , in fact longest standing friend appears have ditched me sorry say ; was a kinda life line even though probably doesnt realize this ?!
- too enthusistic and scared normies off in the past I think , that said,
I'm aware more now I think;thanks in part , to diagnosis.
learned to curb enthusiasm because repeated rejection at school age and beyond . But , can be intense person I guess
;It has been said I complain alot.
sorry say sans regular friends at time of writing ( though a neighbour calls in to see me relatively frequently )
- many 'hangers on' in the past ( pre-physical problems )
-physical sensation experiences post injury appears have significant impact on mental state because autism sensory perception problems
;whereI'm up with regard my understanding of coming to term with the overall picture so to speks
- so, possibly in the right place ?
;injury appeared affect memeory function which, for me, was excellent and significant part my personality I think, then bump to head - appeared effect '' what I term as : 'fish-brain' (5x second memory - pretty distressing )Similar having Ferrari, then 1989's Skoda I think ;that said, pre-injury brain function re-appears sporadically , and with this I try to catch up with basic tasks, and tackle basic administration ( (oft' poorly, and distressing bc 'fish-brain).
- seem significantly misunderstood
-if you read up to here; thank you for reading.
Regards,
hello and welcome!
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