Hello

Hi, this is the first time I have ever used a forum and not even sure if I have aspergers but wanted to connect on the off chance that someone may be able to help me.

I think I was happy enough as a child but when I went to secondary school that whole transition for me just didn't happen and I feel that I have struggled with trying to find myself ever since. Thus the shy akward girl that conforms because it was expected of her but the result was a teenage anorexic and an attempted suicide before I was 15. I have spent 15 years on anti depressants, I have tried discussing with my GP that I feel there is something else wrong with me other than being depressed  but I feel that I don't explain myself very well and get ushered out the door with the prescription in my hand and told to keep on taking the pills if they keep me going and perhaps do CBT and refer me to a talking therapy.

Basically this idea about Aspergers came from a discussion someone was having with another person at work they mentioned their daughter has autism and I went away and did some research and found that the more I read about Aspergers it was like a text book about me. I have since seen my GP twice but they will not refer for a diagnosis because basically I am functioning. The GP said I am not ill and have a chronic disorder that I need to learn to manage better... perhaps he is right, I don't know but I cant shake the fact that something connected about the Aspergers and feel that I need to know one way or the other. I have done lots of those on line test which say that I am on the spectrum and should see my GP, I have read books about women that have been diagnosed in late life.

I do not have the funds to pay privately otherwise I would, I don't want to waste NHS resources but for my peace of mind it would be good for my soul to know one way or the other, but I am now lost cause I don't know where to go for help?

One of the reasons that I am desperate for help is that I think my daughter may also suffer with Aspergers, she is in her 20s and is struggling with life but at the same time she is one of the most inspirational people I know, it would be nice to be able to give her some guidance on this journey.

Any advice would be nice