Published on 12, July, 2020
Which is why i've returned to the forum. Sometimes all you need in life is a kind ear and that can be hard to find. Often support relies exclusively on advice. But i've heard all the advice now. It's extremely hard for humans not to immediately leap to reactionary judgement as that is the easiest thing to do. Can anyone spare me a sentence. A non judgemental one. Even if it's only, "Hi and i hope you will be well". Life can be difficult when you live it alone.
Was really ill this morning. Black dog at my heels. Feeling a little better as the day goes on. Sorry i didnt get a notification about your latest reply.
Sorry to hear that. x
I procrastinate by doing lots of other 'displacement activities' so I convince myself I am busy or making good use of time, then when the day is over I feel like a useless lump of.... because I failed to do the important things.
I think the severe extremity of my level of procrastination is not helping me. I need to sort myself out. Step by step. Easier said than done though.
yes, I was in a chat where an idlewild song came up. I love music but it also burns too hard in my senses sometimes as well. When I am busy at work I have to forget music, like staying away from something you love because you love it too much. Otherwise it would swallow me whole and I might not eat, sleep or work.
Sorry for the delayed reply! I'm okay, thank you - not feeling 100% today, so I'm glad it's the weekend and I can take things slowly. How are you doing?
I think the first one is from Ricky Gervais. Few people really like him, I seem to be one of these few people.
There's also: if god wanted me to believe, why did he make me an atheist?
Also, a bit loose in the translation, the rainbow is god's symbol for his love for men... it's in the bible!
Procrastination is actually a very clever strategy in life, you reduce the odds that the last thing you ever do on earth is something you could have put off ...
oh Are you the person that like Idlewild on here? I see your user name is plectrum. Listening to music is one of my enthusiasms!
Well, I probably wrote a bit unclearly in my post. I took a break from the forum because I was struggling with all kinds of interactions and stress elsewhere. I went through a phase when i thought I was unintentionally provoking everyone I came into contact with. I was also falling out of my daily routine and having bad waking / sleep cycles that made it almost impossible to go to work. I feel a bit better so I decided to come back and try it again.
Hello Plectrum. I'm sorry to hear that you are also struggling.
That first quote is very humorous. Almost makes me want to leave the house! I seem to feed into some sort of self destructive streak i have, when i live like that.
I noticed you know Christopher Hitchens.
Some good quotes related to Atheism:
Make sure to sin, otherwise poor jesus died for nothing.
Jezus actually didn't die for our sins, he just went in a coma for 3 days.
If I'm an Atheist, why doesn't the insurance pay me out for damage due to 'acts of god'?
Hello Malojian, I remember you from some months ago. I have also returned to the forum today. I got very stressed and took a break from social interactions. Sorry to read you've been struggling. I hope you start to feel better soon.
Thanks. Hope you are ok?
Thanks. And returned to you.
Hello, You are not alone, we are for you.
Hello
welcome back to the forum. Sorry you are having a bad time. Sending you some positive thought-waves.
The Riddler said: I lack the ability to explain how life is for me and she lacks the ability to understand
This is how i and i suspect many other ASD people interact with the world. I have retreated from it all rather than trying to fit in. Bliss? Hardly. Most of my life i've been trying to work out which is better. Be an alien amongst people who may never understand. (some of whom might not even care to begin to understand) or just try and enjoy my own company for the rest of my days. Neither is a great option. Which i think makes it a Hobsons choice (if that's the correct term.)
Don’t be sorry. In a nutshell, I lack the ability to explain how life is for me and she lacks the ability to understand. If you can nail that, bottle it! I’m sure we’ll muddle through.
I'm very sorry to read that. I imagine the only way a future relationship would work for me is if i lived seperately from my partner but without the cultural signifiers that suggests. Is it possible for an NT to be in that kind of relationship without getting affronted and mortally offended? I'm sure it's possible but rare. For example Chris Packham and his partner live seperately. Anyway that's what i may look for. Even if i never find it. Rather than just conventionally living with my partner because it's the done thing.