Published on 12, July, 2020
Im Lora and my life is just crumbling to pieces. The people around me are sick and have been for the last years and since ive been slowly starting to break. I feel like an egg, cracking and am terrified because i know very soon I will just crack and that will be my life over.
Its hard because everyday everything seems worse than yesterday. its horrible. It puts me in a bad mood and makes me thing awful things about myself and others. I never used to be like this. Six years ago life was perfect. I was happy, me family was happy and healthy and I could see a future. Now theres nothing but emptiness and darkness.
The day is quickly approaching when ill 'crack' and lose myself. But I want a friend, someone to talk to before that happens so you can get to know the real me before its to late. I want at least someone to know who I am and what I'm like before my memory is gone forever. I get angry recently but thats not me, it never used to be. I liked music, art, walking and reading. Ive never had a friend, someone I could talk to or understand me. I find myself and life so disappointing. I had a fantastic family and we had some good times and now those times are coming to a sad end.
Im so upset and so scared of what's coming and Im afraid ill break down before its time.
Good afternoon Lora,
Thanks for your sharing your posy.
I am sorry you are experiencing difficulty.
I can't imagine what you are going through.
It must be so challenging trying to keep everything together.
As well as, trying not to let things become too much.
I hope you know that if you ever needed to talk.
There are several helplines you could access such as the Autism helpline.
Also, the use of the community page.
Thanks for taking the time and courage to share your post.
Please feel reassured that you have done nothing wrong or you are at fault.
I hope that things can become less stressful for you.
Everyone deserves a bit of happiness.
No matter how big or small.