At the moment, I’m struggling with expressing my emotions. Last week my mum passed away and I’m currently holding back my grief. I was at the hospital when she died, but I’m struggling to accept it.
My two brothers seem to be handling it so much better.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mum. I know it's easy to say, but try not to compare yourself to your brothers. Everyone grieves differently; for some people, the reality doesn't truly sink in until a little later. Your brothers may appear to be handling it, but they could be struggling more than they let on. A lot of people put on a tough exterior.
Don't rush yourself or pressure yourself into feeling/acting a certain way. This is something you have to go through in your own time, in your own way.