Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi,
I'm a really big worrier. Worrying is a huge part of my Autism, its caused me so much grief, especially as I've got older. I'm now 21 and it's like I've had a lifetime of worrying. In the last three years alone...
My dad was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes, which looks like it's getting worse.
My mum was diagnosed with a brain tumour, we later found out it was benign.
We were involved in a car crash.
My brother had a blood clot on his lung, he is now better.
My gran passed away.
And I keep fluctuating between different states. Some days I'm happy and other days I'm really depressed and sad, and I'm unable to talk to my family about it because I don't like worrying them. I find it relaxing and soothing talking here, and also listening to music and watching Disney movies.
I just worry all the time, I can even wake up in the middle of the night worrying. And I also get stomach pains, chest pains and headaches. The pain varies between a 5 and a 7 but very rarely any higher than that. I always thought I was seriously ill but this year we took me to the doctors and they did a blood test, which resulted in me passing out outside of the doctor's and being found by a woman and her daughter - very embarrassing! Luckily it turned out that nothing was wrong with me, but the pains I get are still very uncomfortable and I don't even know what they are.
Does anybody else here worry and get pains? If you've got any good coping methods I'd love to here them.
I used to go running on a treadmill to beat the vaguer ever-present pains. But because I can't dose myself or feel I'm overdoing it, I literally ran into injuries.
But for me physical activities calm both the pain and the mind. If I don't go for walks at a decent pace to wear myself out, everything hurts.
I know you have physical issues but try walking every day to see what it does. Ignore the start-up pain and tiredness. It helps me anyway.
Blank I live in the countryside and try to take walks every day, it's getting colder now so I don't go out every day but I try to. I'm hoping it will help me too, I get a lot of pains and these generally put me off in case I have a heart attack but I've had them so long now I really think it is all just worry, anxiety and ASD.