What keeps you fighting?

Nothing anymmore. 

I'm waiting for blissful death. 

Aw no :( is there nothing at all that makes you happy?

Not really. Everything I thought I 'enjoyed' I always had to psyche myself up for to even bother. So I decided recently I'm not going to psych myself up anymore. 

do a REORG

its an army thing when u in disarray and the enemy has overrun your position

you shout REORG REORG

then you reorganise

make notes on your situation  ---- this is called the SITREP

then have a break and decide what youre going to do next

bear in mind the "Art of Doing Nothing" ( look it up ) which means u can just do nothing at all for a period of time but reread the SITREP again

see if that helps

I know you are multi-disabled so also cut yourself a bit of slack because i have always considered you to be a very gutsy person indeed and you are excelling and punching a way "over your weight"  put that in your SITREP 

I am sure u will be up to something again soon but come back in here if u are feeling down

do a REORG

its an army thing when u in disarray and the enemy has overrun your position

you shout REORG REORG

then you reorganise

make notes on your situation  ---- this is called the SITREP

then have a break and decide what youre going to do next

bear in mind the "Art of Doing Nothing" ( look it up ) which means u can just do nothing at all for a period of time but reread the SITREP again

see if that helps

I know you are multi-disabled so also cut yourself a bit of slack because i have always considered you to be a very gutsy person indeed and you are excelling and punching a way "over your weight"  put that in your SITREP 

I am sure u will be up to something again soon but come back in here if u are feeling down