Published on 12, July, 2020
I was recently diagnosed with autism in my early 40’s and it’s been making me think about how, although I have friends, it feels like such a lonely place because I might not act interested in people or want to talk but I still crave friendship. Does anyone have any advice on this?
Yes I struggle with this between not wanting to be with people I don't know as I'm not comfortable with anyone outside of close family. But then having a need to have friends. At work yesterday I felt awful as all the team seems close apart from me. It makes me feel sad. But then I have to remind myself that I avoid them as much as I can because I don't actually like most of them. They talk about each other negatively quite a bit when some aren't there. But to their face they act as if they love each other. It is not nice to witness. I really don't want to be part of that. So get annoyed at myself for feeling sad. So I shook it off yesterday.
Sorry I don't have advice but do understand what you're meaning.