Published on 12, July, 2020
Recently I'm coming to terms that I function better without friends or attachments, I have my own routines and rhythms that malfunction when things change too much too fast or when I try to change to appease people and ignore my introverted nature.
I'm not completely asocial, but I engage in the minimum contact required to keep things balanced.
I am considering telling my local activity coordinator next week that I want to stop looking for social groups and volunteering.
I'm so conflicted because I am far too attached to people. Like I feel like I rely on my friends to create my happiness and when they don't respond to me it leaves me feeling miserable and unwanted. I need to find a way to focus on doing things that make me happy and creating MY OWN happiness.
I relate to that. I've definitely been a bit too needy at times. It is hard when I only have one friend though.