19 year old female just diagnosed with autism

Hi everyone,

I'm Tia and I've just joined this society as I've just only recently been diagnosed with autism hours before writing this. Just genuinely shocked right now at the diagnosis I mean I always knew there was something quite different about me as I have social anxiety and struggle in lots of social situations, at first I thought I was just shy and this problem or shyness would go away with time but unfortunately it became worse to the point where I would feel sick to my stomach and overthink to the point that I would just want to cry whether it was at a big family gathering or with strangers in a crowded place. It was when at a family gathering I couldn't hold the tears in and just burst out crying in front of everyone and panicking about how many people were there and wanting to just leave, I realised that maybe there was something more to this problem and I told my mum that I wanted proper help. I had a few therapy sessions last year but none of them helped as I hate talking about my feelings and I feel like the therapists didn't suit me. This week I had a psychological assessment where I answered a bunch of questions and the psychologist said some of my answers ticked some of the autism symptoms so booked me for an autism assessment. Then today I had my assessment again I had to answer some questions and separately my mom had to answer some questions with the result being a positive diagnosis. Hearing that I had autism made me sort of relieved like I finally know why I am the way I am but I also felt shocked I mean why was this not found earlier when I was younger. I am just so generally overwhelmed and don't what to do now that I have autism, I found this site when I was researching about autism and decided to start a discussion in hopes of any help which would be appreciated thank you.