Published on 12, July, 2020
As the saying goes. Trying to get my head around the contradiction between being told I belong and am wanted here and the heavy, and often very condescending ,criticism that's currently being directed at me.
I've had cars like you before!
For what it is worth, I haven't really seen or felt condescension being aimed at you, nor criticism, to be honest. I see you an an active and productive member of this community, who commands not insubstantial respect and a growing warmth for you, from all.
Now - this is not to say that ANY of the above words (that honestly report my perception on the matter) are even remotely correct.
I think that this may be at the heart of the matter. We are prone to misinterpretation, misconception and miscommunication.
TheCatWoman said:Is it possibe that you see the negative more than the possitive or give the negative more weight?
I don't dismiss that. I'm very much someone who places a greater psychological weight on negative comments aimed at me than on positive comments I receive.
TheCatWoman said:People have so many different levels of ability here, its often hard to know how to pitch a response, I think it takes a while to get ones head around it.
I can best describe how things are with me as, with words I used recently, 'Exec dysfunction can be like a car with a powerful engine but a very dodgy steering wheel. IMO It's the thing that's had the most disabling effect on me.'
Is it possibe that you see the negative more than the possitive or give the negative more weight?
I don't find all the posts directed at me, supportive or helpful either, a couple have made me wonder if the poster thinks my head does up at the back because the post they send me is so Duh! But I accept that most people are trying to be genuinely helpful and not patronising. People have so many different levels of ability here, its often hard to know how to pitch a response, I think it takes a while to get ones head around it. In my case, I've been questioned about why I don't share photo's, it might be reasonably asked, how someone with a degree and who's obviously fairly intelligent and well read, can't use a camera or a smart phone or any of the other tech gadgets people use?
It's not just you, its all of us!
Also something else occurred to me whilst I was walking the dog.
We are not one amorphous blob of people. It's not you and then everyone else. Everyone else are also individual people. I know that this is obvious, but the way you write implies that if someone has written something then you feel that we all have written it.
My wife criticises me *all the time*. Doesn't mean she doesn't want me.
My two cents is that I think you are quite fragile at the moment and autistics can be quite blunt. I wouldn't take it personally.
The two things are not contradictory