My Wildlife holidays.

I like that you have a clear idea of what you want to do in sports. I hope that you get to compete in something one day.

When I was younger, I used to really like unsolved mysteries too. Do you mean things like UFO/Bigfoot, or things like unsolved crimes? I was really into UFOs and things like that. I am not so much these days. Close Encounters of the Third Kind (1977) is still one of my all time favourite films. It is not too scary. I would recommend it.

There are some good documentaries on Netflix. I really like "Inside The Mind of a Dog". I do like wildlife and stuff, but dogs will always be my favourites.

as for the netfix and stuff Mum and Dad have alot more channels than I do. so I do like a couple of other channels aswell. there are some things on BBC that i like but i dont like just watching any documentarys it has to be related to a special interest. the ones i most commonly watch are David Attenbourgh or mystery and geography or history related documentarys same with netflx. I like all sorts of history so it doesnt just surround around one theme but im most interested in ones with mystery and discovery and what they knew then and what they know now. some other documentarys i like with mystery in is un solved mysterys.

even though I do like archery and im good at  it its not something I would enjoy doing at this present time  as much as things like martial arts and athletics. once i got my mind set on something its hard for people to change my mind when i have.

 i dont tend to do sports  solo unless practcing and with (non) solo sports i usualy prefer playing against one other person. alot of examples of sports i like one is archery but im also good at tennis basketball, swing ball, bat and ball, snooker or pool, martial arts, im also good at athletics as examples 

i won a medal in  athletics at schooll since i went to an athletics club and there was a competion. I  likes races and things like that and theres lots of other athletic things available at the club it is also inclusive for people with disabilitys. however theres nothing about gender identity and  i have discovered they split people into male and female teams. you can do it solo but encourage you to join teams and being up against one or two people at least would be more suitable. I dont have any friends to see not even ones who are transgender like me or autistic so i just see family and if i did solo sport i wouldnt have the oportunity for making friends. 

 I have a goal l for athletics and  im a fast runner and im hoping to take part in a competition. cause my goal is to take part in the athletics competiiton the athletics competition is very well known and they take part in competitions all over the uk. 

i usualy have  a goal that im determined to reach and my goals stay in my mind for years and practice to hone the skills that i have  until i can  fufil it.   i still have plenty from childhood so I dont give up on mygoals easy   im not really as keen on solo sport for me. im more. for me  it usualy involves at least one other person but i will train solo and find that easyer that non solo.

even though  people should have a choise who they want to be with if they are transgender  for me I wouldnt decide not to do something and give up on something i want to do just cause of that  but in line with my identity i wouldnt want to put myself out to the public and mis lead people into asuming my gender identity and biological sex are congruent and that there one and the same by being portrayed as something that isnt who i am and not part of my identity. at the same time which creates a dilema.

but I also  like to have alot of time to myself to do my hobbies though otherwise i get overwhelmed 

Or solo stuff, like archery?

There are some good documentaries on Netflix. I really like "Inside The Mind of a Dog". I do like wildlife and stuff, but dogs will always be my favourites.

I do have netfix just not on the tv so Iv watched netflix documentarys and I have dvds I can watch aswell. 

I dont know.  alot of  sports is abit iffy about biological sex and gender identity still. there can be exceptions but mainly alot of sport is based on the idea that you must play as the biological sex asigned at Birth regardless of weather you identify as it or not cause they organise people into male groups and female groups. you will see this alot in competitions . as an example of one sport even though its not athletics like mine is in mixed martial arts for instance your someone  whos biological sex is female but identifys as exsperiances life as a male in order to take part you need to be on testosterone and it needs to be a certain level. 

for things like sport  Athletics being one type of sport and not just with traing but  particularly when it comes to competitions  people tend to be split into male and female groups which to a transgender person who identifys as male or female is like puting you into a box and saying unless you pretend your identity is in the right body you cant participate. obviously they. have there reasons but its not good for people like me who doesnt exactly comfirm to societys standards on bilogical sex and gender cause of being transgender 

It's tough being autistic when you want to do something that involves other people, but then there are crowds and noise.

That's great about the martial arts back when you were in school.

There maybe sports where gender doesn't matter so much. I don't know what though.

Do you have streaming TV services (Netflix or Disney+)?

sorry just got called for lunch so I had to go but im back. it probably will do as long as Dad  is  better next week which hopefuly he will be. 

I dont have any clubs or anything so other than going out somewhere I usualy Just do my hobbies in my room or the living room but I spend more time in my room than the living room 

clubs are very diffucult cause of having to work around the schedule in the house and the others in the house and I wont go out with them only with one of the people that takes me out but working around the schedule is still an issue. 

I found a athletics  club and we asked for a membership but they havnt got back for 2 months and they still havnt even though they were asked again. 

so I dont isualy have much luck with clubs. and theres things like crowds and noise and me being transgenderr identifying as male wont want to be on a fenale team. but they had to put down my biological sex rather than gender as a requirement as part of the member ship 

then theres journalism and media literacy that iv got into that im hoping to do a course on but theres been complications and itd been delayed 

i used to do taekwando as secondary school and was a white belt and like kung fu so was thinking of doing shoalin kung fu 

Wildlife culbs havnt been very succesful cause of times 

and then theres other clubs i moght like but there are  interests that are still developing and even when I try to get into clubs they dont usualy work out due to many factors 

so im mainly doing my honbies. 

That is really disappointing for you, but I hope that it means that your holiday still happens.

What do you do at weekends when you do not get to see your family?

Im not going to see Mum today. Dad has got a fever. she texted me yesterday evening but my phone and laptop awkwardly didnt alert me to her message when it normaly does and I was preocupied so I didnt see it and have only just found out this morning she said she will let me know on Monday or Tuesday or whenever shes better next week. I did say illness has a habit of cropping up out of nowhere at in convenient times and disrupting routine.

regardless of westher its a cold, infection, or something else. trust it to be the day before I go home.

I find when you have a illness or something else people around you either in the house you live in orout and about  else  tend to say things oh its this or that you will be fine or something along those lines  but when you have autism it does makes things like  illnesess and even things like injurys and other things like that more complicated. for me  mental health probloms like Anxiety and depression run in the family.

not just Amxiety or Depression either for instance but disorders like bipolar. a couple of years ago  one of my cousions had bipolar and depression for instance before  what  im not going to say in order to respect the fact people could find it upseting otherwise.

for me  I take mood tablets for my depression. iv been taking them since 2013 for me so has improved. for me even without autism i probably would of got an anxiety disorder in some form anyway but my autism imcreased the liklihood even firther and easy to under estimate the fact when you are born with autism or/and anxiety or other mental health issues it can makes other factors diffucult even things that apear trivial to others.  thankfuly as far as I know Mum doesnt have any mental health issues. my dad i dont know though. Mum  thinks he does but he hasnt been diagnosed with any disorders or anything as far as I know.

cause of my autism it makes change hard to cope with particularly when it comes to seeing my Mum and Dad cause I struggle from being away from them for more than a week but hopefuly the flue my Dad has will get better. Mum says the reason I havnt gone home is cause she doesnt want me catching his flu just before we go on holiday 

but when I do see her next week I will be sending it here this is the one for non holiday trips i go on with my family 

https://community.autism.org.uk/f/adults-on-the-autistic-spectrum/38827/trip-i-went-on-yesterday-and-other-trips-not-day-trips

I will be doing the holiday one for this thread though  either today or next week 

I am so pleased that you told your Mum and she was good about it, and that you will see her on Sunday.

I think that the people in your house asked the first time out of politeness and concern for your well being. I think that they didn't ask again because they may have thought that you don't like people asking. Autistic people like us have situations like this all the time. As you get older you do get more experience with situations like this.

I hope that you post the rest of the report about your recent holiday before your next holiday. I look forward to reading them.

yesterday people in the house were over eager and asked me how i am yesterday when I ohad only just started them so I gave them the answer they  most likely already knew i was going to say.  which was no.  it is cause iv only just started them 

in a strange turn of events they asked how i am when my anti biotics would need time to get into my stystem before working. it was only day 2 and day 3 is when they would of got into my system cause it takes time. 

today when the antibiotics are meant to of got into my system and start working  they havnt asked me anything. as strange as it is I have had people in the house asking the wrong way round in terms of timing which felt very absurd to me

 but anyway today  this afternoon my throat has been alot better and hasnt hurt when swallowing.  as a result my throats feelling better than yesterday.t is gradualy getting worse again as usual cause its the evening but the fact it didnt hurt when i swallow this afternoon was a good sign so it seems like im defanatly getting better so far

and i will be seeing Mum on Sunday. I have told Mum that I got tonsolitus in the end and thankfuly no no changes to seeing her cause of having  the tonsolitus   there has been alot of changes to my routine  cause of the timings of my anti biotic and i broprofen medication which didnt help my anxiety but I did let her know in the end and she didnt say i cant come round so that went better than exspected. Mum says  I will be going on holiday on 25th September so thats on the Wednesday after next week 

I'm looking forward to you posting more about your holiday!

I don't think it is possible to be contagious for more than a few weeks with a cold. I understand you don't want to jeopardise your chance at seeing them. It's hard for us to hide things. I blurt these things out anyway, even if I don't want to. Hopefully you'll feel better by then. It's important to finish the antibiotics even if feeling better.

My mum was a nurse for many years and then she hurt her back and became a teacher after that.

Mark (formerly Spikey) said:

So many people on this site have anxiety about the same sort of situations that you describe. I do too.

thanks. yes that is a good thing in the sense that cause of that people can relate to each other

my Mum is a nurse and works at a hospital in a ward

 so she knows alot about colds and various other things. my Dad has a job at Nokia so he works with phones and computers and is very into technology and allways wanting to get exspensive things that come like the ipad model this or that or some other latest technology. goes on holidays to places around the world for meetings for his work but mainly works from home. so Mum is the one that knows all about the medical things at home.  if I were to let her know that I have tonsolitus she would probably know alot about it although she hasnt had good exsperiances with the NHS  from managers and other factors in the hospitals shes worked for and has had to quit jobs in those hospitals cause of how she was treated. she went onto working at a place like a care home but also abit like a hospital but for working for people with Autism and learning disabilitys amoung other conditions that need help due to things like illnesess and diseazes health wise or that are in critical condition where she takes care of patients but she didnt work there for long then she went back to working at a hospital again. she has been working at hospitals ever since i was a baby so she has alot of exsperiance but cause she does Mum would know that tonsolitis is caused by colds and so she could thrfore think that I have a cold aswell as tonsolitius particularly since I had cold symptoms before i went on holiday and my Mum had a cold with a sore throat aswell. 

I wouldnt mind telling her I have tonsolitis if she would still let me see her but its cause she could say well if your poorly maybe you shouldnt come over and she could say this even if she doesnt think i have a cold so regardless of weather she thinks i have one or not and Mum would have to give me both the i broprofen and anti biotics at the set times that have been set and she has the dogs aswell as Alex to look after. my brother is diagnosed with depression like me aswell and was diagnosed with  an anxiety disorder called social anxiety a few years ago and cause of his social anxiety spends alot of time in his room rather than socialising and has probloms with eating with people cause of his anxiety and they give him chores and   make sure they still interact with him cause he rarey socialises with the family. and then theres all the dogs that they need to look after  so I dont know if the timing of my medications could be an issue on Sunday and maybe cause her to say i wont be able to come home in this case 

ithe reason im anxious about it is of mainly in case she thinks either i have a cold. or she thinks if im poorly i shouldnt come home. or that handling my medication could be a problom but then a part of me keeps telling me i need to tell her at the same time so its the whole everything changeing cause of it and so its hard to decide weather i should let mum know about what i got or not cause of my anxiety cause of change and i normaly see her every week. 

iwhat im glad about most is that now theres hope for my exstremely painful throat that is painful all day and un bearable at night  to get better cause what is causeing it is being treated with medication and that i can be pain free on my next holiday unlike the last few weeks and my holiday i went on. i m still going to post my holiday eventualy

I meant tonsolitits. I didnt realise i put tinititus. I do get ringing in my ears or rather a sharp sound like a broken microphone making a horrible noise it can re ocur but not allways and usualy only lasts for 5 mintuess if I have been in a noisy situation and my ears find the noise in the envirement too loud or too noisy and more frequently if iv been in that envirement  for a long time but it tends to come on out of nowhere so i dont ever know if or when it will ocur but its not  a every day or daily basis cause it has to be triggered by sensory overwhelm or from if I get too anxious or get emotions that come on suddenly that are very strong and intense. but it doesnt allways ocur when a source could trigger it sometimes it can take me needing to be in those situation for a very long time for it to ocur whereas sometimes it doesnt ocur at all but those are the usual triggers for me.  but no I didnt mean ringing in the ears 

I dont know for sure but hopefuly your right that its long gone  I still have the blocked up nose and sneazing so that is why im still not sure it could be that im at the end of it. i do have rhinitis which can cause  symptoms like  blocked up nose and runny nose and dry and sore eyes. usualy in response to things like dust and pollen.  im very self aware and im usualy good and telling for instance weather something is caused by my rhinitis or not even if it is similar aswell as if  i just have a general sore throat or weather i have a cold i have a certain level of doubt about weather it is still about or not but my main concern is that mum will asume i have a cold since it can cause tonsolitus not  if i still have a cold as such. it can take me longer to recover from illnesess including colds cause i take a medicane that I need to take but that comprimises my imune system as one of the side effects which means i have a low immune system. it seems to be gone mostly though compared to before. thats interesting you say that for you you get a chest infection. for me i usualy get a blocked and runny nose and sneaze combined with a sore throat but for me my body particularly cherishes sore throats out of all other symptoms and its usualy the one that lasts the longest. it usualy causes  me probloms with eating and sleeping. I have a very restricted diet and eat the same things every day but im very fussy with texture and allways have been since i was younger and i tend to chnage my diet to more restrictive foods when i have a sore throat cause i will only eat soft foods cause its painful to swallow. i and then im born with a sleep disorder and so sore throats make my disorder worse even though its just a cold when i catch them they do last longer than normal and tend to worsen certain things I have like abouve but even though they do tend to take longer than usual to get better they do get better and although i find them hard to deal with cause there painful iv never had a sore throat as painful as this one only once i have. in my case i tend to get more head colds and sore throats rather than chest infections iv had them before but not often. 

dont worry i know tonsolitis isnt infectious like i said its what causes the tonsolitis and not the tonsolitis so i know what may of caused it given i had a cold before the tonsolitis developed. 

for me in my case I dont normaly get chest infections but my body loves sore throats and every now and then it   likes to give me an infection either before or after a cold every now and then its one of its favourate hobbys and usualy in a very un timely manner. 

thanks for letting me know what you meant by the advocating yourself  thing. 

Advocating means speaking up for. An advocate is "a person who puts a case on someone else's behalf." But you have been able to put your own case forward to people. Even though it must be hard to do. You got seen by someone in the end.

When I get a cold, about a quarter of the times I end up with a chest infection.

Tinnitus isn't infectious (do you mean a ringing in your ears?)

Your tonsilitis won't be infectious.

Your cold would be infectious, but it is long gone. You may even have caught it off your mum or dad all those weeks ago.

So you should be OK to see them.

So many people on this site have anxiety about the same sort of situations that you describe. I do too.

thanks. dont worry I know that thats why I wasnt asking for medical advice. I found out that you can take i broprofin with tonsolitis and not just colds. interestingly it can be caused by both viral and bacterial infections but viral infections are very common and acount for alot of cases. so what happened is that I could of had a cold to start with which would make sense cause I previously kept getting a blocked up and runny nose, itchy dry and sore eyes which eventualy became swollen cause they were itchy and iritated which made me rub and headache and started sneezing  alot the swollen eyes went away but the blocked up nose, sore and dry eyess and everything stayed then eventualy I developed a sore throat which has been around for 3 weeks now. im under the suspiction that if this is in fact the case that it was caused by the cold I had  then the tinititus could of started developing at some point during that time frame or afterwards cause it was only a few weeks ago before my holiday and i still had the cold at the start of it. 

i found it very helpful finding out what it was from the pharmacist  cause that makes things clearer 

I was anxious cause since i havnt done it before I thought it was going to be looked at at the counter with the medicane people where people would be walking about and there would be distarctions and not in a room on my own without any visual or auditory distractions with an actual proper professional. I actualy took my ear defenders and a few pieces of paper in case i need to write and draw to help exsplain anything but there was barely anyone there and it was quiet and we waited on a chair which i didnt know was what we were going to do and then went into a room with a man which i didnt know we were also going to do either cause iv never done it before but unfortunatly no one in the house thought i needed to be told whats going to happen and didnt tell me whats going to have in each step from walking in to going in so i continued thinking what i did and being anxious about it when the anxiety could of been avoided from being talked through properly whats going to happen. i did ask what is going to happen and stuff but all i was told was that after a phone call you go into a pharmacy to look at it and you need to do that before you to the doctor which while that was helpful to an exstent  wasnt quiet what i meaant so i remained Anxious and confused about everything.  but that aaside the main reason i went was to get something for it but additionally I would be able to. find out what it is which means me and everyone else  wont be walking around wondering and guessing all day and il be able to get it dealt with before I go on holiday, the only issue i have at the mom has messaged me today and said she will  seeing me on Sunday so  is that il be going to see my Mum and Dad on Sunday and im worried about telling them about my tinitis cause i dont want them saying i cant see them but i dont know weather i still have the cold along side it or weather its gone and its just the tinitius cause its the cause of the titinitus that is contageous and not the tinitius but then again i could of still had a cold when i saw them anyway. I didnt know it was infection but started to supect it to be cause its lasted 3 weeks and cause of how painful it is amoung other symptoms and in the end it turned out I made the best decition cause unlike colds that get better in a week infections just get worse and worse and continue to and so it would of been worse rather than better in a couple of days. I thought it would defanatly be a good idea to get it sorted now rather than have to wait for a couple of days just in case. both my mind and my feelling kept telling me not to wait for a couple of days and it turned out to be correct so my body must of been trying to tell me something on a mental level aswell and not just physicaly. if the anti biotics and i broprofen work then i have a high chance of being better for my holiday. 

just out of curiosity what do you mean by advocating for myself? im not sure weather i understand what it means or not so thought i should ask 

Well done Zo! You are good at advocating for yourself, I think. I thought tonsilitis myself, but we aren't allowed to give medical advice (for good reason!).

I hope that you start to feel better soon, and are good for your next trip away.

it did go well. it actualy went quicker than I thought aswell I told them it hurts when i talk and drink and east and swallow and looked in my mouth with a torch and imedietly diagnosed it as tonsolitis in less than 5 minutes. so he has prescribed me anti biotics for it 

That is great about pharmacist. They are very well trained (almost as much as doctors). Being able to prescribe antibiotics is a recent ability and a good ability for them to have.

I hope that the appointment went well.

its not to do woth overdose they jist didnt have a mar sheet for ibroprofen. 

as for the pharmascist they got back to us today and an apointments been made for 12oclock so in 15 minutes. there going to have a look and then decide what I need based on that cause if its a infection then they will need to give me antibiotics