My Wildlife holidays.

im tired from yesterday since I had an overwhelming day. I dont know what today is going to be like but it seems calmer other than the radio i can hear from the kitchen every day and all day from my room of course and general every day noises. 

out of curiosity I have been wondering. it can be fustraiting when you dont have a name you can give people like non autisitcs or anyone really to describe an exsperiance you have in relation to autism. i know about scripting cause the resident with pathological avoidance syndrome does it on a daily basis every day. hers is rather things that she has heard people say or people have told her and can be to the point of making conversation diffucult for the non autistics that look after us in the care home so try to encourage her to talk about other things if it gets to that point cause she repeats the same thing shes heard over and over again every minute, every hour, every day and every single  every month. 

the kind that I have however is camaflauged so not picked up by neurotypicals around me in spite of the fact it comes up in my social interactions both in and out of them on a subconcious level. i am aware of it and allways have been since iv done it since i was younger for me i dont tend to  copy what people say or from what i hear people say in casual conversation or day to day life 

in normal day to day life I do have echolalia but it is as before camfalaged and so just percieved as normal during day to day interaction. it can be  exspecialy proniment if im on my own sometimes even though i do it when not alone aswell.  ever since i was younger Iv allways copyed things from tv and i can also both tell people what happened in every movie or in a whole epesode or series.  movie I can for instance write or tell you what happened in every single movie from memory from Harry potter and the philospher stone to the deathly hallows just  as an examle or any other speaical interest i can also remeber facts from memory all these iv allways been able to do since ii was a child. 

during watching tv or after we have watched something with dad or watever i have repeated things or certain phrases from a caracter or favourate character alot  that my parents have got iritated by it but i dont ever know until they say regardless of weather in a car or at home or out and about  but cant actualy help it and have been told to stop it or have been told thats enough now. i often find this stressful. 

 when I go into all the details of something iv watched when shareing an interest or fact  and talk about it for a long time.  due to my autism I dont get bored by it but my Mum and Dad do get bored of it but i dint pick up on there body language or notice if someone is interested or not and dont understand why even if exsplained to me or told so dont pick up on verbal or non verbal cues  they arnt if they arnt and when they arnt and I  thefore ask why but still dont unserstand and of course still want to talk about it even though im clever and intellegant and able enough you would think this is the sort of scenerio that wouldnt happen cause of that and i would be exspected to undertsand this in social interaction regardless of my knoledge and undertsannding in various topics where you would exspect my to have certain social skills due to them some i do and some i dont but there are  those i dont due to being on the autistic spectrum 

 there are things i dont due to my autism and that i do struggle in and not mastered and when my autism does come in to play due to my autism i do display this autistic trait with the people i know and talk to people about my speacial interests anyway 

same thing happens with the staff 

but at the same time it is a gift as i remeber things from my speacial interests and what was said and done. 

i often have cartoons and movies of speacial interests with scenes from movies and cartoons alot and remmeber all the details 

but more on the echolalia side  the kind  i have is called media scripting 

alot of the words i use or the way i say them is from things i have watched and things i have implemented from things i watched when i was a child and things from what i copyed as a teenager also that i implemented into social interaction it often doesnt get picked up cause the words used are ones even people not on cartoons or film may use or even if they are come across as so normal that no one would pick up on it. iv found theres more info on why of scripting and the form of scripting where people copy other people rather than media scripting in autism 

I "media scripted" when I was very young, and when I was a bit older I did it a bit from comedy programs. I think this made it seem less strange to non-autistic people because it was funny if I didn't do it too much. I had not heard the term "media scripting" before, so thank you for telling us what it was called.

Being able to talk for a long time about an interest and not knowing that other people have got bored is quite common to us all. Before I came more self-aware, I'd make the same joke about 50 times. It would get funnier to me, but less funny to other people.

"camouflaged" is a good word. When I was tested, I was tested for "camouflaging". One type of camouflaging was "masking", but there are others too.

It would be great to see some of your older cartoons. If you still have any.

thats ok. 

for me I still do media scripting iv allways done it since I was a child and i see it as part of my identity since it is part of my autism

Being able to talk for a long time about an interest and not knowing that other people have got bored is quite common to us all. Before I came more self-aware, I'd make the same joke about 50 times. It would get funnier to me, but less funny to other people.

 for me iv allways done that aswell ever since I was a child aswell but   I still do it.  

even though I have a learning disability I know that doesnt mean im not clever and intellegant its just a different way of thinking

 cause of my learning diaability i wallways worked best learning on my own compared to in a classroom with others it was also cause of my autism aswell though.

 i take my time when it comes to learning things cause I know that I have a learning disability and in the way i know suits my learning personaly to help me learn. i tend to learn things step by step and take my time i take the same aproach to my autism. sometimes i like to teach myself skills related to my speacial interest that i know alot about.

I find with my autistic interests even though i take my time if i want to learn skills cause of knowing i have a learning disability i find that i learn things like skills i want to learn related to my speacial interests quiet fast due to certain stregths that come with being on the autistic spectrum 

as a matter of interest im interested in things like  body language and behavior mainly in animals but used to be in people and therfore do know alot to an exstent even though the human side its not my speacial interest anymore due to not undertsanting it even though i knew what to look for.  even with having had an interest in it  i lack the undertsanding to understand when people arent interested so it seems no matter how much i know about it and even though im very observent too due to my autism i still dont undertsand why people arnt interested in my speacial interest and keep talking unable to pick up on these things even when exsplained to me due to being on the autistic spectrum. with all other speacial interests cause they dont have to do with the social aspect as such im very talented at them 

 im good at the things im interested in and im interested in lots of different things so i have alot of things i fixate on. due to my autism and i like learning and teaching myself new sklls aswell as working on ones im good at even though i know im very good at something due to haveing both my autism and  llearning disability i still like improving on what im already very good at aswell  

  something worth saying though is it tends to overshadow alot of the challanges a face that haveing a learning disability comes with and haveing Autism comes with simulataneously 

so i find  people can forget due to the positive aspects of my autism that are more visable that i do have these common traits 

 cause i only have a moderate learning disability im quiet able but people tend to act surprised about the fact im  intellegant since i have a learning disability.

 people know i can draw from memory and that i can remeber things from memeory to do with my speacial interest and life vents  so it doesnt pass people that im clever and intellegant but it shouldnt really surprise people just cause I have  a learning disability that im clever and intellegant

l just cause you have a learning disability doesnt mean your not intellegant as you mentioned previosly even though that was about something else.

 people dont find much  positives about my learning disability though they only see me for the afect it has on the llearning  aspect of haveing a learning disability

 i find haveing autism although having both conditions can be challangeing can aso come with unique gifts personaly like for instance i (still) havnt learned what you mentioned abouve the positive side is that i can remmeber things from movies and cartoons from memory even if it anoys people 

having a learning disability could of afected my autism and  also slowed down the ability to learn certain social skills more than if i didnt have autism due to the way my learning disability afects how what people say  comes in and gets processed through my mind even though its not social specific then of course i have my autism which afects my undertsanding of social situations so both could of played a role in my case even though that trait isnt part of my learning disability

but part of my autism i do know its a common trait but could i have fluent speech and i dont have a speech disorder and my learning disability is only moderate makeing me quiet  able people forget that these things are part of my autism even though they know it to be the case

but due to that it slows down my thought process and understanding  down and speech slightly. theres a 5 minute delay between haveing processed something and undertsanding what has been said. his has even been observed by a psycologist. iv been told by Mum my speach is slighly slower than average due to my learning disability also.  there is also certain things i dont undertsand due to my learning disability. 

iv also missed out on certain things  that i should have learned  cause i think differntly and  due to being behind my peers and due to learning differances the way i think and undertsand 

but i know what things i dont undertsand and  what things i do I also know what certain  skills most people will have learned by my age that everyone is exspected to have by a certain age that i have and havnt and certain things people are exspected to unerstand by certain ages what i have learned and havnt in those aspects of life skills amoung other things also 

although this is a seprate condition that ocurs alongside my autism and isnt social specific skill wise it probably also plays a role but it is cause of my autism. 

the scripting 

when I script  its a subconcious thing that i have done ever since i was a child  i know i do it but i know  theres nothing wrong with it.  i try to control myslef if it anoys my parents but even that doesnt feell right as its allways been part of me.  

It would be great to see some of your older cartoons. If you still have any.

where I said i have cartoons and movies of speacial interests i do but what i thought i added at the end but didnt is that what i thought you might find interesting is that i have my speacial interests play in my head sometimes over and over repeatedly  and that is what i meant but i could tell you about the old ones if you want  

thats ok. 

for me I still do media scripting iv allways done it since I was a child and i see it as part of my identity since it is part of my autism

Being able to talk for a long time about an interest and not knowing that other people have got bored is quite common to us all. Before I came more self-aware, I'd make the same joke about 50 times. It would get funnier to me, but less funny to other people.

 for me iv allways done that aswell ever since I was a child aswell but   I still do it.  

even though I have a learning disability I know that doesnt mean im not clever and intellegant its just a different way of thinking

 cause of my learning diaability i wallways worked best learning on my own compared to in a classroom with others it was also cause of my autism aswell though.

 i take my time when it comes to learning things cause I know that I have a learning disability and in the way i know suits my learning personaly to help me learn. i tend to learn things step by step and take my time i take the same aproach to my autism. sometimes i like to teach myself skills related to my speacial interest that i know alot about.

I find with my autistic interests even though i take my time if i want to learn skills cause of knowing i have a learning disability i find that i learn things like skills i want to learn related to my speacial interests quiet fast due to certain stregths that come with being on the autistic spectrum 

as a matter of interest im interested in things like  body language and behavior mainly in animals but used to be in people and therfore do know alot to an exstent even though the human side its not my speacial interest anymore due to not undertsanting it even though i knew what to look for.  even with having had an interest in it  i lack the undertsanding to understand when people arent interested so it seems no matter how much i know about it and even though im very observent too due to my autism i still dont undertsand why people arnt interested in my speacial interest and keep talking unable to pick up on these things even when exsplained to me due to being on the autistic spectrum. with all other speacial interests cause they dont have to do with the social aspect as such im very talented at them 

 im good at the things im interested in and im interested in lots of different things so i have alot of things i fixate on. due to my autism and i like learning and teaching myself new sklls aswell as working on ones im good at even though i know im very good at something due to haveing both my autism and  llearning disability i still like improving on what im already very good at aswell  

  something worth saying though is it tends to overshadow alot of the challanges a face that haveing a learning disability comes with and haveing Autism comes with simulataneously 

so i find  people can forget due to the positive aspects of my autism that are more visable that i do have these common traits 

 cause i only have a moderate learning disability im quiet able but people tend to act surprised about the fact im  intellegant since i have a learning disability.

 people know i can draw from memory and that i can remeber things from memeory to do with my speacial interest and life vents  so it doesnt pass people that im clever and intellegant but it shouldnt really surprise people just cause I have  a learning disability that im clever and intellegant

l just cause you have a learning disability doesnt mean your not intellegant as you mentioned previosly even though that was about something else.

 people dont find much  positives about my learning disability though they only see me for the afect it has on the llearning  aspect of haveing a learning disability

 i find haveing autism although having both conditions can be challangeing can aso come with unique gifts personaly like for instance i (still) havnt learned what you mentioned abouve the positive side is that i can remmeber things from movies and cartoons from memory even if it anoys people 

having a learning disability could of afected my autism and  also slowed down the ability to learn certain social skills more than if i didnt have autism due to the way my learning disability afects how what people say  comes in and gets processed through my mind even though its not social specific then of course i have my autism which afects my undertsanding of social situations so both could of played a role in my case even though that trait isnt part of my learning disability

but part of my autism i do know its a common trait but could i have fluent speech and i dont have a speech disorder and my learning disability is only moderate makeing me quiet  able people forget that these things are part of my autism even though they know it to be the case

but due to that it slows down my thought process and understanding  down and speech slightly. theres a 5 minute delay between haveing processed something and undertsanding what has been said. his has even been observed by a psycologist. iv been told by Mum my speach is slighly slower than average due to my learning disability also.  there is also certain things i dont undertsand due to my learning disability. 

iv also missed out on certain things  that i should have learned  cause i think differntly and  due to being behind my peers and due to learning differances the way i think and undertsand 

but i know what things i dont undertsand and  what things i do I also know what certain  skills most people will have learned by my age that everyone is exspected to have by a certain age that i have and havnt and certain things people are exspected to unerstand by certain ages what i have learned and havnt in those aspects of life skills amoung other things also 

although this is a seprate condition that ocurs alongside my autism and isnt social specific skill wise it probably also plays a role but it is cause of my autism. 

the scripting 

when I script  its a subconcious thing that i have done ever since i was a child  i know i do it but i know  theres nothing wrong with it.  i try to control myslef if it anoys my parents but even that doesnt feell right as its allways been part of me.  

It would be great to see some of your older cartoons. If you still have any.

where I said i have cartoons and movies of speacial interests i do but what i thought i added at the end but didnt is that what i thought you might find interesting is that i have my speacial interests play in my head sometimes over and over repeatedly  and that is what i meant but i could tell you about the old ones if you want