My Wildlife holidays.

just thought i would update on how im doing before I was going to give it a couple of days but thats not the case now 

because my throat has been such a pain literaly at night I asked the people that look after me yesterday if they could make an apointment with thew doctor and fustraitingly I had to wait literaly all morning until the afternoon for them to make it even though they knew it was such a pain for me last night but did it eventualy the only thing is when they tryed to make the apointment the doctors were way too busy and the one that made the call suposedly didnt tell the person on the phone that Iv had it for 3 weeks (not 1 or 2) if its been more than a week then its advised to see a doctor  

and its cause iv had it so long i need to go to the doctors instead but she  just told the doctor  I got a sore throat and what iv said about it and so either the doctor, nurse or receptionist on the phone said if its just a sore throat then just go starit to the pharmacy to look at it cause there trying to get people to go to the pharmacy instead cause its too busy at the doctors  for any more people so not much luck so far

Im trying to get my throat looked at and sorted this week and know that I need some sort of pain relief in the evenings and that is what is making me so desperate cause i cant continue going without it in the evening cause its too bad in the evenings to go all night without any and its usualy at its worse at night and is getting worse every day. the thing is the person that was on the phone to the person who phoned the doctor doesnt know me so wouldnt understand that I get nervous when i go to doctors so it isnt something i would of done if I didnt want it sorted so soon cause its gone on for so long. I also havnt got to a pharmacy to have a look at a sore throat before and for me it would be better in a room on my own with the person looking at it and not in a shop with people lined up or walking about its not the right option for everyone but cause she doesnt know me and the doctors are very busy with lots of patiants thats what he or she said to her 

they said they would get back to her yesterday so she can refer me to the pharmacy. the thing is it seems like something a doctor should look at in my case cause of the duriation of my sore throat and also due to the fact it wouldnt be suitable for my autism sensory wise and it is also something unfamiler I havnt done before so the whole making an apointment didnt go aswell as exspected cause now its delayed by having to go to a pharmacy to have it looked at before i can even go to the doctors to have it looked at or delat with. 

no one knows why its lasted more than 3 weeks or if theres something in it cause of where it is in my throat and how llong its lasted so I feell like my throat is being overlooked by the medical practice  i usualy go to  since they thought if its just a sore throat I dont need to go to the doctors for it. 

so it wasnt taken to be as important as they should of  given how long its been so its just left to hope that gets sorted. 

in the meantime cause I cant be going without any type of painkillers every night I asked if i could have any ibroprofen but there wasnt any so I asked if we could get some more tomarow but there isnt a mar sheet for it so there going to do one and they dont know how its going to work so she will be asking about it tomarow so

to help my case particularly since i dont want to still have this throat on my next holiday that is after next week and have to keep putting up with it every night which isnt healthy sleep wise or even in general particularly since it could be an infecction now rather than just a passing cold. 

 I decided to draw where it is hurting cause even though i told them its all the way up and down my throat and the side and gave them various other symptoms that may be useful for them they keep repeating its at the bottom when it isnt just at the bottom. its almost like they sort of cut what i said in half like a cake and left the exsplanation and correction out  to make things easyer so I decided to do a drawing to show them where it is tomarow I dont know weather I will need to show them or not but hopefuly not hopefuly they will sort the i broprofen out. im not getting my hopes up but hopefuly. 

if my luck improves (if) then hopefuly I can be sore throat free for a change by the time I go on my next holiday which will be after next week 

Thank you for sharing about your dogs. I love dogs. I love them to bits. Unfortunately I am allergic to animals. Horses and cats very badly (hospital!), but dogs are bearable.  Luckily, as I got into middle age, this got a lot better. And I also recently heard of hypoallergenic dogs, that I have much less of a reaction too.

My sister-in-law's dog is hypoallergenic. And I lover her to bits. I get to look after her, and have done so four times in the past 12 months since they got her as a puppy.

I've shared a few pictures of her on this board, but here is another anyway. It was taken about a week ago...

She sees me as a special fried. One time, we looked after her for a month which really cemented our relationship. When I visit, a get a very long and noisy welcome that other visitors do not get.

Growing up, our family had five dogs over the years (not at the same time.) As my allergies got worse, I used to wear a face mask in the house (many many years before COVID!).

I think we'll get a dog in the next 5 years or so.

I think that it is great that you have rescue dogs. Our family had all types. Rescue, bred, re-homed. My wife says that I still go misty eyed when I talk about my old dogs.

Wilber sounds great!

thanks. it doesnt nesacerily mean I wont be active  in the community. I will probably still be active to a certain exstent. and I dont mind talking about the dogs  or doing the guess who game or talking about Wildlife in general and other things im interested in and things like that its just thinking  about and writeing about this Wildlife holiday I went on recently. 

with the dogs we actualy have Wilber Lucy, Lola, willow and Max. Mum usualy takes the ones that are best behaved with other dogs since on holidays in general we are bound to come across other dogs. Lucy is too outspoken and even howls if she sees another dog and lola isnt the best either. Max is too mych of a nervous dog and gets scared of strangers. 

we dont normaly take wilber cause hes not the best with dogs either but we did last week. 

we usualy just take Willow who is the best behaved om holidays and the non romanian rescues Alphie and ziggy. Alphie likes going on holiday but ziggy has seperation anxiety so cant stay behind even though he doesnt like dogs. so all together its usualy Willow Alphie and Ziggy 

all the romanian rescues have differant exsperiances as a dog thats been rescued through adoption from Romanina. 

they used to be Wild dogs. they  were born from there  parents out on the street and had to learn how to survive from there. 

rather than being born through methods of domestication 

and so were considered strays that had to learn how to survive on there own. people in strays in romania and then decided they dont want them and dont treat them properly and chuck them out 

for instance with lucy she was found closed up in a bag with puppys 

Max was tied to a post outside as a puppy and his eventualy collar dug in and injured him as he got older 

Willow we arnt a hundred percent sure about her but we know that she jist like the others may have been hit at some point cause if you raise your hand willow imedietly gets scared and asumes your going to hit her 

Lola I havnt asked much details about 

but Wilbur is one of those that wasnt owned and literally Lived out on the streets by digging and  learning how to find food himself amoung other things 

none of the romanian rescues were bred they were born out in the wild by there mother and lived out on the streets some get taken in some dont 

if they get thrpwm out they leave them to be found by someone else or to be caught by the dog catchers trying to control the strays but they dont do it via humane methods and mis treat them and put them on death row and only a certain ampunt can be adopted at a time 

Mum adopted them from a romaninan rescue charity that goes over and brings them to england for adoption

Mum and Dad prefers romanian Rescues to ones that have been cross bred. 

unfortunatly the other romanian rescues other than Max and Wilbur didnt get to know as puppys but Wilber amd Max I did. 

Max took months to get used to use cause of his feat of strangers it used to be that I couldnt walk in or anyone else without him barking out of fear due to being mis treated in Romania but is no longer the case now. you just have to remember to try not to do anything he could mis interpret as threatening like unpredictability sudden noise or sudden  movements and then theres body language  like if he thinks your staring at him even if your not  he can percive that as challangeing him even if your not aware of it 

the one that Iv bondest most with is wilber. ever since he was little hes allways been a nervous dog and has never been the type to sit on peoples laps I was the only one whos lap he would sit on as a puppy and when he got older he got less nervous and so is alot better and sits on other peoples laps aswell at times 

I totally understand. I hope that you get better soon.

just to exsplain things better about why I cant post my holiday at the monent. you would think posting my holiday would take my mind of it cause its about wildlife

but my brain knows my memorys  of my holiday also involves my sore throat -  I had to have i broprofen and then in the evening 3 bottles of water of which I usualy went through two and started on the 3rd. 

and so for this reason it doesnt take my mind off my cold so that im not thinking about it too much.

even if I dont think about the cold element my brain already knows that my cold was also a theme  that also ocured.  

so posting my holiday would remind me of my cold cause of how my brain works 

  (holiday) cold, 

cold  (present)

this is why in order to take my mimd of my sore throat the topic literaly has to be un related to anything that could make me think about my cold and thsts why  I cant do my holiday trip at the moment

its so that im thinkng about things without any elements that involves things like colds and what not so that I can take my mind of it  until things sort themselfs out 

taking my mind of things usualy works when I have a cold 

origionaly I was going to do the rest of the holiday thing first but thats going to take a long time so I dont mind telling you about the dogs until then. I will be going on holiday again in 2 weeks 

sorry abput the delay I decided to do it today instead but that didnt work out in the emd cause my cold has got worse compared to last week.

it was origionaly getting better as of Friday but now my throat is very bad so it hurts when I talk or swallow and basically all the time aswell

it started getting better from about Friday then today this morning wjen I woke up it jist got painful again.

  throughout the afternoon into the evening it gradually got worse and worse. im not really poorly and im not in bed all day. but it doesnt help when I think about it too much so It usualy helps when I try to think of other things so im trying not to think about it too much and do things to help me take my mimd of it.

 iv decided to play some games before doing  the holiday thing cause its easyer. for reasurance  its being kept an eye on for the next couple of days and if it doesnt get better then  il be going to the doctors cause Iv had it  for what is the   begining of 3 weeks now 

as for the dogs il tell you about the dogs after part 3 and 4 cause im having tea soon the longer bodied wasp like one is a wasp il go into more detail after Iv done part 3 and 4. the treecreeper was one of my favourates on holiday aswell

im going to do my part 3 and 4 of my holiday now cause Iv got tea in about an hour 

thats ok. 

Thank you for sharing this. What a journey!

thanks. dont worry I know you will probably slip up until you get used to it. out of all the people who have had to get used to the whole name thing  my family at home have found it hardest cause  they have known me longest and even to this day my Mum slips up alot she has been doing it since 2020

that  was the year I found out there was a term for my exsperiance in other words such a thing as transgender and that it described my exsperiances. I  tryed to keep it a secret at primary school and secondary  school but it was no secret with my family who i kept correcting and them correcting me in return saying but your not and saying its not right and that they cant call me he him usualy causeing me discomfort and fustration and sometimes she would even argue. my secondary school was no different from my primary school I kept it a secret from them up until I was 16 when i trusted someone to keep a secret that I feell like a male and dont like being called she and that i didnt like being called the name of my biological sex but that person i trusted with it who was part of my class  told the rest of my class in the playground and then when i told the teacher they have been good friends to me and that they  arnt good friends anymore in front of them in the whole class they outed me to the teacher. I kept it a secret again then up until college when at college  I corrected someone in front of a group of people and got outed again and had no education on the topic of gender identity and biological sex back then so i had no term I could use to describe myy exsperiance and i felt mis understood and people thought it was strange.  it wasnt until i told someone something that i warned they might interpret as strange and said that im comfused why I see myself as male and feel like a male and why im not comfortable with being called she and it makes me feell like im in the wrong body and the person said it sounds like transgender I looked it up and did some research through a book on transgender aswell as writeing reading and other things and it was then i came out to people. I hadnt yet changed my name i changed my pronouns first and then my name after but not legaly yet It took time for people to get used to it and would need bringing up on when they slip up  I hadnt come out to my family yet I was hesitant they wont be acepting cause of the amount of times they corrected me and obvious lack of understanding of what i was exsperiancing when I did risk it and tell them they said they wernt surprised. I came out to my other family like auntys and uncles aftterwards and then I went onto my doctor a few around 2022 2023 time period but it took longer for me to come out to my nurse who does my blood tests every year but did eventualy around the same time period. Iv found people who dont know me aswell as Mum and dad and my brother and sisster  actualy get the hang of my name and pronouns quicker even though they have known me for a long time. I came out to my sisster and brother aswell as my Mum and Dad eventualy but not at the same time. it does take time but you will get the hang of things eventualy

It sounds tough. It sounds like you have a very strong idea about who you are. I hope that these things get easier for you. Ideas like this are 'new' to us older people. I really do try to get it right, but will slip up. It doesn't sound very nice for you when people just carry on making the mistake over and over as if they don't care, though. I think you are amazing dealing with your phobias like you do and having a strong idea about who you really are.

there was one part that was stressful which was that I thought they were going to use the name im called now and not the one I used to be called when I was younger and it got shouted across the room which caused me dysphoria cause now a little boy and a man asumes i identify as what i was labeled based solely on the name that is usualy seen as feminine and one of the things i hate most is it shouted out for everyone in the whole room to hear both out and about too its not just limited to hospitals  and I dont want to be seen as the label i was given at birth  cause its not how I identify as. theres a differance between biological sex and gender identity and I didnt want how i was labeled revealed in such a public place and defantly not shouted across the room. the shouting caused me anxiety and then i did adress to the receptionist the name i prefer to be called for reasons that im transgender earlier but she obviously didnt pass it on and I also wasnt exspecting my dead name it to be used in the hospital or shouted at the very least. my dysphoria is bad enough as it is cause iv been to a gender clinic in hopes of getting hormones so that my body is congruent with my identity and so its hard to exsplain what it feells like when someone shouts your dead name across the room exspecialy in a public place. aparantly what they did is put the name i identify as right next to my dead name which is what caused the problom. the reason I thought they would call me by the correct name i identify with is cause my tuberous sclerosis exspert changed and corrected all his papaerwork to reflect my actual identity and that was at a hospital so things didnt go well in that sense it is making me contemplate getting my name changed legaly so that its on my passport and other legal papaerwork and things to avoid dysphoric situations like what happened at the hospital 

and he kept calling me the wrong name and pronouns in the room and struggled to get a word in I kept opening my mouth but before i could speak he spoke so in the end Mum had to but in and tell him my prefered name and it was then I had a gap to tell him im transgender so that he knows its not just a nickname or something like that since some people call each other nicknames.  I took my ear defenders but noise wasnt an issue in the end and it was very quiet it was just the complication of being transgender and not yet having my name changed legaly 

I hope that the scan wasn't too stressful. I am looking forward to reading more of your posts.

I love the bees, and what is that longer bodied wasp/hornet looking one?

I think my favourite is the treecreeper. I'd never heard of them before.

I also want to hear more about your dogs, Wilbur and Willow! 'Romanian rescue' sounds intriguing.

im leaving to go to a scan a less invasive one that doesnt require radiation and not noisy to check my kidneys cause of my rare condition Tuberous sclerosis cause it also afecte them not just my brain so I will be going to that soon but when im back il see the coments if there is any on my wildlife guess who game post and finish of part 3 and 4 of my wildlife holiday on here 

thats interesting thanks for letting me know. Iv seen flys acidently get into fridges before and that is there favourate dinner 

the reserve was rather overgrown so we couldnt see much of the lake but the walk through the woods was still interesting and we saw the signs that the beavers were present. 

Mum said I picked a good place particularly since there wasnt any people for the romanian rescue Wilber and willow and non romanian rescue ziggy  to react to due to there bad exsperiances in romania after that we went to a cafe which wasnt exactly the best for the dogs cause of the dogs even though it was for dogs but I liked the Bumblebees 

after that we came back and I did more squirrel and wildlife watching. 

I was mainly looking for birds but I only saw gray squirrels so I ended up Squirrel watching 

there was a den made of sticks  outside and I watched them from in  there 

I dont feed birds bird food  throughout the year and instead just encourage insects and wildflowers  for them and other wildlife so that they dont rely too much on bird food but my parents do cause dad likes feeding his Robin who he is trying to tame so that it feeds out of his hand and is feeding birds mealworms instead of fat balls so lent them to me which i was going to use for the winter which is when i normaly feed them and took them on holiday with me which i dont normaly do. none of the birds came down and this is now Wedesday and only 2 days left so I wondered if if i put any fat balls out what would come and while watching tv I caught a carrion crow picking a fat ball up off the ground from falling on the floor 

then I found out where all the 10 fat balls went which was on the  banistar all round the treehouse and cabin 

that evening Mum asked me if im going to the treehouse again tonight that me and wilber liked. and i said maybe. she said if i dont she will cause she likes it and said ok. again I was very nervous cause of being away from Mum and Dad and being on my own but I knew that I had wilber.

now as nice as it would be to not be scared of anything at all after overcoming my fear of wildlife I do have other fears cause my autism gives me high levels of Anxiety and i developed lots of phobias some i still havnt faced and overcome yet and I have learned that there are many I still need to face and overcome. theres a differance btween just being scared of somethhing and having a phobia and theres different types of phobias I have  specicfic phobias that i devloped over my childhood and teen years so i still got a long way to go fear wise and still got alot of things to achieve and its going to be diffucut maybe even challanging like it used to be when i had a phobia of wildlife but when i am ready to face and overcome them I will do and one of those fears Is not just needles but  a fear of the dark. both my phobia of needles and phobia of darkness it goes without saying triggers  panic atacks and  I used to be better with the dark last year and before that than this year I  didnt mind being in the dark as much and panic attacks reduced and almost stopped entirely  even though iv allways had that fear and even went on a noturnal forest ranger trip once and im usd to going out in complete darkness to walk the dogs with my family  if it were last year I wouldnt of felt so nervous but something happened this year that worsened my fear that I was gradualy overcoming and doing well with and when I went in  in the hot tub in the dark exspecting to be fine I wasnt and while I was in the hot tub I had fun but I was scared of hallucinating in the darkness and something bad happening in the forest while im oblivious in the hot tub or walking in the dark with mum and dad with the dogs and while I was in the hot tub I gave it alot of thought that my fear of the dark is something i need to work on. so this holiday has taught me something cause I didnt realise my fear would afect the walks and being out in the dark. 

apart from being paranoid that something bad is going to happen in the forest or while walking with my parents and even getting scared of real people in the dark after the hot tub before going to the tree house for my 2nd night there I did enjoy it I like being in the really warm water with all the birds calling out across the forest floor both from far away and nearby and sound carrys far in the forest i also allways get exited about the possibility of hearing a tawny owl. 

after the walk with my family I went to the tree house cabin where i were to sleep away from mum and dad in the dark on my own but wilber was with me that night to look after me and he is like a guard dog so would protect me if anything strange was to happen and i also have had a close bond with him since he was a puppy. he liked the treehouse better than the room both me and mum wanted origionaly that i went in before this one un planned. wilber prefered stiting both bed and floor whereas with this one he just stayed on the bed all night and curled up and slept alot better he was also not restless either compared to the other room and as usual I had a lamp that helps me relax cause it changes colours. I found i had nothing to worry about after that night and there was no banging and i knew what to exspect aswell and even if there was to be banging that night knew it was just it starting to rain and the banging will ane down. the next day i went on a pond trail walk and a forest ranger activaty and wasnt scared in the treehouse at all as of that night. I will do part 3 next after this 

Just popped by to tell you that we found a spider... in our fridge! Managed to get it outside. Very small, but think it must have been with the oranges, so could be from anywhere! I should have taken a photo but didn't think. Like the pictures. Will post properly tomorrow, I think.

Hatchmere Nature reserve 

Himalayan Balsam 

english oak 

identification tips 

its not the only way cause there is other features too but one of the big tell tail signs is the long and short stalks 

there is another species called sessile oak but sessile oak has exstremely short acorn stalks but long leaf stalk 

whereas englsih oak has long acorn stalks gray Squirrels love these and theres loads at the tree house in the forest

there not ripe yet when ripe they go brown but even though its not ripe the gray squirrels have no problom with that 

there is lots of ocassions where the squirrels have picked them up and tryed to eat the seed inside anyway 

I also saw fungi 

there was lots of common earth balls which is a type of puffball fungi 

and another fungi.

Common Heather (cullana Vulgaris)

large leaved Avens 

I didnt know they were in an enclosure cause i only had a short time to research it for my family otherwise i wouldnt of spent hours but when  I got there I found out  they are in an enclosure and im not fond of animals being in enclosures  but that aside the beavers were reintroduced to Cheshire for the first time in 2020