Published on 12, July, 2020
I have my chosen family. They love me and I love them. They don't socially reject me. They tell you that socialising is an important part of recovery. I'm quite asocial,but get bored with my own company at times. I'm no longer willing to make the effort to socialise. I don't need and want more social rejection. Not that I can do much socialising anyway, as I'm housebound without help.
The tragedy of Autism for many is that humans are not meant to survive in isolation. Many of us will choose to live that way because of the alternative. Many of us will convince ourselves we are happy that way for long periods of time. But because we are human as well as Autistic we will never be truly happy alone and will only slowly become more psychologically damaged by it.
I seem to contradict myself on this daily. Sometimes I'm like "I never want a friend again" and other times I'm happy to talk to new people. I know exactly why I'm caught in the middle, but it's largely bad experiences that influence it.
They primed us for Pole, only for us to retire at the Parade Lap.
Just need to reform society so it is at least accommodating towards us. Unfortunately sweeping political change takes decades and we are alive now.I am 42 and was diagnosed at 18. There's been quite a lot of progress in getting Autism up the agenda in that time but it's quite literally taken half my life for us even to get this far. I sometimes console myself that a child born today will have it by degrees ever so slightly easier. I'm not sure if that's true or not. As for solving my own issues. I don't even know where to start.