Published on 12, July, 2020
Even though it has, at points, been physically taxing to the point I've had no choice but to stop. Or not search at all because there's something else going on for whatever reason.
They also don't consider freelance contracts to be a "real job", so by that definition I haven't worked a day in my life over the last 9 years since leaving full time education.
I applied for a paid shadowing programme and was invited to a workshop. I didn't get it so it feels very much "back at square one" as it sounded like the perfect opportunity.
I've done so much cold emailing and applying to no avail - I know it becomes a full time job in itself. My aim is to spend the next week digging into contacts I have instead.
This is so tough. From your parents point of view, they will be worried what happens when they are no longer around.
I get grief from my wife now that I've been going through a very long bad patch. But she does mean well. Neuro-typicals aren't perfect - sometimes their frustrations will bubble up.